Happily ever after........

多谢，C公公～

2011-05-08T08:07:00.000-07:00

明天回到同样熟悉的病床，或许却不会休息着同样的公公了吧。上个星期五我抚摸着他的手，安静地在心中和他告别时，我祝福他一路好走，不要不舍得。我呢，望了婆婆一眼后转身却忍不住哭了。我走进了房间一边为公公祈祷，一边眼泪不由自己地落下。

说真的，我以为我会勇敢，我以为我不会哭。那天早上公公不好的时候，我用被掸盖上他冰冷的双手，和他说：“不要怕，医生来看你了”。他那时还醒着，我看到了他脸上的害怕和他内心的不安。公公也许已经知道他的状况不乐观了吧。

刚过的星期二，公公在我带他走路过后，比往常安静，好像在想东西，也频频地感谢我。那时我有种不祥的预感，我却也不敢多想。婆婆过后的两天埋怨公公不吃她煮的汤，而且又难伺候。我在想公公是不是不想婆婆不舍所以故意对她诸多挑剔。隔天的星期五，公公就不行了。

和公公和婆婆相处了有五个星期之多，我好像把他们当成是我的公公婆婆了吧。曾几何时，我如此身陷在他们的生活里，也许已经超过了治疗师与病人的所谓的范围吧。所以当婆婆自己和我说：“C爸爸不行了，他应该过不了这关，他会舍不得你们的”，就在那时我开始泪泛眼眶，我甚至不多想地抱了婆婆一下，就赶紧一边逝掉眼泪走开。我怕我再不走我会泪洒当下。

就算事隔几天，我如今一边写着，还是一边哭着。我想到他开心的拿着我买给他的绒毛锤子轻拍着他痛着的胸口旁，一边说感觉好多的时候，感到一阵欣慰和心酸。又想到他当时兴奋地把他的communicator 放进我送他的黑袋子时，我感到心在颤动。也许我不该太过投入吧。所以现在竟会那么伤。

C公公，如果您在天之灵，保佑婆婆身体健康，保佑她不要那么卦念您。多谢您让我在您人生的最后一段旅程中和您相伴。谢谢您的信任和疼惜。谢谢您的坚持和努力。最后谢谢您在我的人生当中出现，让我看到了您和婆婆之间深切的爱情，也让我感受到您的关怀。

多谢您，公公。真的。真的。

永远的向日葵

2010-10-19T08:51:00.000-07:00

他走了。我早到医院想帮他剪好向日葵。还来不及剪，他就离开了。昨天他说他要死了。我却说“谁说你要死了”。将来若再有人和我说同样一句话，我会说你还有什么事情需要我帮你完成的吗？

昨日旁晚五点多的那一刹那，在床上的Mr T 的笑容，犹如花朵一样绽放，就好像看到了天使一般。是回光返照吧。当时，他吵着要坐出来，我帮他身体上半身放高，他双脚肿胀，我把双脚放在枕头上。然后就在写notes的时候，在那瞬间，我朝他看的时候，他对我笑了两下。我就有种预感他也许过不了今晚了。

今早的五点左右，Mr T 他离开了人世。应该到了一个更美好的地方，一个没有病痛，只有欢乐的地方吧。我也许不会忘了那时他的笑容，因为带有一点辛酸，却又有点欢慰的感觉。或许刹那间，他看开了。

刚刚我踏进Mr T 的房间看了他一眼。他的脸上是有点痛苦的。我不知道在他灵终的时候想的是什么。至少他不用在痛苦下去。又或许时间够了就好。不必挣扎，不必害怕，就自然得让自己飘上去。不带着任何牵挂，任何包袱，安静的离开吧。

我差一点想把送给Mr T 的向日葵拿回来照顾。可是我决定把他留在床边，也许他的家人会决定和他一起送上天堂。我呢，在花店买了多一朵向日葵，放在医院，就当是纪念他。

谢谢您的陪伴，也感谢您的勇敢，让我更珍惜生命。

Mr T, 祝福您.

A Tribute to me bunny, Snowball~~

2010-10-04T08:44:00.001-07:00

Snowball was adopted about 6 yrs ago. She was white at first, before she started to grow brown streaks on her body. She passed away last Sun in the wee hours of the morning. No one saw her go. She had vomitted some fluid I think, I saw some stains on the newspaper. I hope she was not in much pain. Her body was rigid and her ears so cold when I found her lying in the cage. I bathed her and made her as clean as I could possibly could because when she was alive and very ill, I just did not know how to clean her. It was so difficult because she was paralyzed and I think had urinary incontinence. I dried her fur with the hair dryer and placed her in the brown paper box lined with newspaper and padding.

I wondered how she felt at the moment she knew she was going. I figure that animals are the same as humans. I did not spend much time with Snowball on the night she passed away. I thought I bid my farewell the next day but I never got the chance. The last time I really spoke to her was on Sat morning before work. I told her we were going to put her to sleep on Sun. I guessed she knew. She knew that I did not want to put her to sleep as much as I do not wish to see her suffer in pain. I think she left timely so I would not have to make the difficult decision. To me, it was ending a life. Who am I to end a bunny's life?

Dear Snowball,

I'm sorry that I have not been the best owner I could to you. I knew nothing about proper bunny diets and knew nothing except to change your bedding. I never toilet trained you but you were mostly obedient. When I let you run around the back, you loved the dark corners of the room.

Thank you for being with us for the past 6 years. Just like I never knew I would miss having you at the back of the house, I never knew I would cry when you go off to the end of the rainbow.

I hope you will be happy wherever you are.

Luv and Hugs,
Your lousy owner
Sin Yi

OMG!

2010-07-12T08:01:00.000-07:00

Dear dear me..haven been very active on me blog ya?...time flies....has been almost 1 year past my California fitness expiry date...me realli regret to say that I have gained back about 5 kg...about 58-59kg now...hee=)...can't help but snack...so stress sometimes...chocolates, pastries, cakes....ahhhh!!!! but still jogging, swimming, gyming...just maybe not as much..it's realli 60% diet and 40% exercise, pple=p...never mind...me will jia you k? you guys keeo a closer watch on me k?

and yup, going to US for conference in July, coming back mid august, catching Kit Chan's December Rain...then busy with WCPT bid if we get thru the first round, then PT day!...neverending..then it's GRM team all the way!...and year end party once again...can time never hold still for us? So we can slowly enjoy each moment before it slips past us again?

then, would I ever have time for other things like maybe someone else important...I tot I found him, but sometimes I wonder if he has found me so I'm once again not too sure...sigh~~why are people so difficult to read sometimes? It's just that maybe I would never feel like this again with anybody else...sounds serious right pple? I think so too...maybe me am too serious for my own good...caught this song on radio one day by 黄小琥，"伴“ Me realli like the lyrics, so pls enjoy...

伴

作詞：姚若龍
作曲：于曉光、李偉菘
編曲：Terence Teo

如果命運可以訂做
如果有另一次選擇
我想我還是會把手讓你緊握
快樂地陪你去坎坷

就算你有天變落魄
就算你老得不能動
我想我還是會挽著你看日落
你的心疼在淚光中

嘴巴上彼此嫌麻煩
眼神中關懷那麼滿
沒說愛卻早已認定一輩子的伴

在人前從來不浪漫
在心中卻總為對方打算
最懂的人最暖的伴

就算我以後變囉嗦
就算我老了有病痛
我想你還是會照顧我到最後
隱藏脆弱不眠不休

沒有辛酸沒有遺憾
什麼是陪伴什麼是心安你是答案

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很喜欢这首歌，原来“一人一半”大概就是这样吧。

It's been baking time~~

2009-07-22T06:56:00.000-07:00

I have been baking quite a bit for a while...from pies to bread to cakes to muffins...haha++...think me should just start a bakery and maybe I may turn fat again...maybe me should choose another hobby...=P

So, I have been working to make my bread and pastries low fat even though there are certain desserts that really taste better with butter such as pies.

First project: blueberry pie...After my first pie, I made another 2 appie pies and another blueberry pie...I flipped through books in kinokuniya, and figured out the composition of butter and shortening and came up with my modified recipe. Shall put it up here on my blog...hee....

2nd project: Banana and raisin tea bread
Replaced butter with applesauce with a totally fat free treat!! I also added pumpkin seeds to the mixture to give it a crunchy nutty taste=) I mashed one more banana into the mixture, and I loved the moisture of the bread...yummy~~

3rd project: Sundried tomatoes,potato and olive bread
This bread had a chewy and moist texture...either my bread did not rise well or it is due to the potato in the mixture....it tasted well with some tuna and lettuce too...

4th project: lemon yogurt cake
I made 2 lemon yogurt cakes and 1 orange yogurt cake....I think it is the way I whisked the mixture or the amt of ingredients I added at a time, that made my yogurt cake a flattened texture and tasted like "kueh", my colleagues ate it anyway and gave me their suggestions...but my yogurt cakes after my first still tasted like "kueh" so I decided that, enough of yogurt cakes for a while and back to the basics....SPONGE CAKE

5th project: simple sponge cake (3x)
with low fat, about 20g of butter used only and yet the cake was fluffy but a little dry when cooled. Did it twice..had to make sure not to flatten the batter too much if not it will not rise as well.

6th project: my first cake: mango and peach yogurt sponge cake
Did my first cake deco...looks terrible but I love the fresh mango and yogurt combination...I felt so bad to throw away some of the whipped cream that tasted so fruity...hee..and the roasted almonds at the side...yummy~~....didn't get a chance to taste my cake though...was for Ms Gan's b'day....

7th project: Oatmal Applesauce Cookies
Completely fat free, replaced it completely with applesauce, but it became rock hard!! Oh me gosh!!...tink I will cut down on the sugar next time...~~

Haven written in a while~~

2009-05-30T09:10:00.000-07:00

Gosh, it's been almost 2 months since I blogged....hope everyone takes good care of themselves in the midst of the flu crisis...exercise, keep fit and stay happy, pple!!

I remember me last post online about a guy I have met...I figured out that maybe a do like him a little but he is probably not suitable for me in the long run. We have different values and goals in life...and I guess that is very crucial...hmm...so me gave it many many tots for these few months, he probably can be a good friend and we can always help each other out in many other ways...but well, we will both be good this way, i think..=)

so happy that me finally got everything sorted out so I'm looking for someone who share similar values with me...=)...no longer feel confused...maybe there is realli someone on the way liaoz...

everyone, all the way!!

人生与死亡

2009-03-10T08:32:00.000-07:00

今天，选择一个人去看了《入殓师》。很感动，是一部大家该看的电影。09年奥斯卡最佳外语片，如果我没记错的话。最近，我都在看有关生与死的书，我同事问我为什么。也许是在加护病房做了六个月的关系，我开始反省自己的人生，也开始想要更了解生死吧。

我妈问我电影可怕吗？我说不可怕，我已经不怕死亡了。假如我现在就死去，我也应该无怨无悔吧。或许我说得太干脆了。也许当我真正接近死亡的那一刻，我会畏缩。我希望我会勇敢，在面临死亡时，因为电影里有一句话：“死亡是一个门/gateway". 所以大家都会再一次相见，只不过在另一个空间。又或者像我一个朋友说过离开世间的宠物会在彩虹下与你团聚，我们人死后也会在彩虹之下相遇吧。这样想，死亡是每个人都得经历过的，我们呱呱坠地的时候，就已经慢慢的步入死亡，不是吗？所以死亡是普通的，没什么可怕。只不过每个人几时死，怎佯死，为什么死都不一样，因为每一个人的“生老病死”都该是不一样的，因为没有人可以取代任何人。每个人都是特殊的，对吧。

上个礼拜，有位在ICU的病人突然走了。我还记得前一天看他的时候，他精神不错，还可以拼命把自己拉上坐的姿势。我看了他至少也有八到十次。我还唱过歌给他听，他喜欢费玉清，周旋，我只会唱邓丽君的歌。虽然他走了，可是他奋斗过，他真的真得很努力地抗斗。那天我本来想见他最后一面，可是我没胆问他的家人。我只能说我一直会记得他的脸，而他的勇敢我永远会铭记在心。

“Uncle，我们后会有期啦”。

一切从心开始

2009-02-21T20:36:00.000-08:00

已经很久没有被另一个人所感动，已经一段时间没有从另一个人身上让我发现自己，从来没有一个人这样让我觉得世界还是可以很单纯的。那这叫做“喜欢“，叫做“爱”吗？

他肯定不是女孩梦寐以求的白马王子，他没有特别俊俏的脸孔，他只不过高我一个头，可是怎么我觉得或许他就是我一直再找寻的那杯白开水。他可以每天不论做工多晚回家，都会带他的两只狗儿去散步。他可以为他的小鱼做CPR，他可以忍着一天一只耳朵听不见而隔天才去A& E。我朋友说他什么星球上的人嘛？他可以一边guard duty, 一边想着飞虫的生命有多么短暂，他也可以看着我送他的铁蛋说那只小鸟好可怜。他更是很坚定地对我说喜欢动物的人是不会开店卖宠物的，我不会忘记当时他眼神的肯定和说话的认真。那时，我就觉得他跟别的男生有些不同。三十岁的一个人怎么让我觉得他完全不属于这个复杂的社会，让我觉得他是个现代的PeterPan呢？

他当然有他的缺点，像是他晚上回家会闷而开始玩bookie 的网上游戏。我说他这样，他母亲一定很难过，我说他三十岁的人怎么只有十三岁小孩的思想。隔几天他说他不玩game了，买了几条鱼回家养，所以才会出现那为小鱼做CPR的故事。我几位朋友说：算了这个男生不适合你，如果将来他沉迷于那些bookie games, 怎么办？我也有想过啊。可是打从我心里面我知道他其实是个或许在这追求地位，金钱的社会上失去方向的人，因为他思想根本就不是属于如今的现实。我是这样觉得的。

所以我说“一切从心开始”，或许我太天真，或许我不太理智，或许。。。这世上有太多的或许。我最近刚读完一本书：“山中花开”，里头法顶禅师这样说过：“死亡不只是迎面而来，而是会在毫无预警的情况下从后面扑来，所以人生中应该随时准备面对死亡”。所以我要把每一刻当成生命中的最后一刻。所以将来的事我们无法预知，又或许如果我用这一刻的心去认真地对待当下，也许将来的事会不一样。就算我是个无头苍蝇，我要做个有心的苍蝇。

所以现在，我只想用我的心去感受他这个人的心。其实每个人的心都是炽热的，不是吗？反正生命它就在这一刻，不是吗？

步行2009年~~

2009-01-11T06:35:00.000-08:00

本来在2008年的21日，参加一个50公里的步行活动，可是却没想到生病了，所以没去。步行和跑步之间，你比较喜欢哪一个？两者之间，我没有偏爱哪一方面，只是有时候跑累了，就想慢慢地走。为什么突然间想到步行呢？因为早报周刊在2009年的第一周刊登了那么一篇文章：“2009年初始，让我们回到最初的起点，找回原始的本能，重新认识---步行".

大家趁这机会想一想，步行对你们来说有什么意义吗？还是大家已经太习惯驾车，坐车了呢？我曾经试过在凌晨一点钟从Yio Chu Kang MRT 走回家，花了我整整一个钟头。爸爸和朋友都骂我傻，干吗不坐计程车呢？其实当时我也并没有真正想到安全方面，只是纯粹想趁个机会胡思乱想，享受那种忧哉闲哉的感觉罢了，就是那么的简单。

有时候大家每天忙忙忙，早上起身刷牙洗脸，吃早餐，上班，下班，吃晚餐，看一下电视，睡觉。。。一切太冲忙了吧。并没有好好地看一下那路边的小花，听那早晨的鸟声，感觉一下下午的阳光，抬头望那天上的星星。步行所包含的不只是慢慢走动的姿势，更是一种生活的态度吧。就是能够放下所有包袱，然后尽情享受自我，享受自然，轻轻松松的。那种自在应该是钱也买不回来的吧！有朋友问我：“你觉得我们应该享受还是每天存多多钱?" 我对他说：我们难道就不可以享受生命中些小小的东西吗？钱当然还是可以存的呀。很多时候享受都不需要和钱扯上关系的。每天起身能够呼吸新鲜的空气，那就是一种福份，一种享受，一种回到初始的感觉一样。That's why today is called the present...不是吗？

在这新的一年里，我想重新认识自己，认识身旁的人和事物，以步行的态度体会人生。因为我也差不多有一个世纪的一分之四那么大了，二十四岁之后的人生，我想，是该更清醒些的不是吗？现在就让我慢慢的躺在床上，享受着此刻吧！

Year 2009!!

2009-01-05T07:43:00.001-08:00

Hey, everyone...i noe that this post is kind of late...=P...it's already the 5th of Jan, 2009!! and I haven posted any pictures of my sushi making and birthday celebrations online yet...i will do it in the next post k?

Firstly, thank you everyone for the well-wishes on my birthday!

Thanks to me family for the Cantonese dinner, mocha walnut cake, bag, pouch and postcards!!

Thanks to Gretel, Jia Wei, Huixin, Jordan, Wencong, Loo Wee, Xinyan for celebrating my bday on the 31st (supposed to be a surprise..hee+)and for coming to me place for steamboat!! and of course thanks (including of coz Yiqin: must be ur idea right?, Suryani and Ringo too~~) for the Jimmy Lin wallet from HK...its very pretty and thoughtful....

Thanks to Xinyan for the gym bag, water bottle and card...just what i needed, man!

Thanks to Jolene for the clover jap diary and Jieying for the shampoo and body cream/lotion!!

Thanks to Bala for his Ferrero Rocher...ha=p....

And of course to everyone who has given me presents and greetings for christmas...diary, pouches, necklance, teddy bear, sweets, chocolates, gym gloves...I dun have the habit of giving x'mas presents but looks like i will start this year in 2009....hee=)

And to anyone i missed out, I hope everyone enjoyed christmas and new year as much as I did....=)

As for the new year, lets look at last year's resolutions first (refer to me Jan 2008 blog)...=P

1) Yes, I'm still enjoying my time with my patients and colleagues greatly!!...but need to buck up on my article readings though....hee...

2)less running around at night...better now..but going to gym too often is it?...got no life almost...hee...me sis is back from HK by the way, yeah! but other sis still in NTU hostel...

3)meeting up with frens..have been consistent for few groups of pple only...it's gotta be better this year...

4)paying my own bills yes..but not writing my finances down properly yet...and just spent a bomb on personal training and taiwan trip....time to save more!!

5)learn the guitar? yes!! this one I did, not yet singing for leisure at 民歌餐厅, but sang and played at year end party...

6)hmm...haven been practising Tai Chi, except for twice in Taiwan in Ping xi where it just felt so good!!

7)nopey...this one failed terribly...paiseh Coach!!...haven been once to kayaking since last year!

8)yup..just sent me Aussie frens christmas cards!..

9)yes..eating healthier and exercising 3 times a week now in gym!!....lost a couple of kilos liao...jia you!!

SO, in conclusion, most of my new year resolutions last year still holds....and adding few more...

10) learn driving towards end of year maybe Nov...

11) help plan my supervisor's wedding...she deserves it true and true....so exciting!!

That's all for now, folks!!....Will post some pics up k?? Take care!!

Oh My Goodness gracious, Yr 2008 is coming to an end!!

2008-12-18T00:50:00.000-08:00

Seems like not too long ago we had countdown together opposite Esplanade...time really flies...~~haven been blogging for some time too...just some updates...=)

got myself into California fitness, having personal training currently, lost some weight...=)...went to Taiwan with Jiawei...met and seen some great people and places...ran the Standard Chartered 10k for the 2nd time...busy preparing for the year end party performance...first time performing on my guitar...enjoying my work...=)...then falling sick for the 2nd time in two weeks and yet another MC...broken my record and used up half my MCs in the months of Oct and Nov...

and Yes!...I'm blogging because me am on MC today...and of course Christmas is here! and year 2009 is coming!!...Hope everyone's enjoying the last few days of 2008!....and meanwhile...take care pple!!....

Locked up~~

2008-10-18T23:04:00.000-07:00

This has not been the smooth sailing time of my life I must say...

During Captain ball tournament, I subluxed me MCP and CMC joint during a freak accident just in the first game...had to go on mc for 3 days as I could barely move my thumb. To make things worse, it happened to my dominant hand...have to be on a hand splint for at least two weeks....but nevertheless my splint is in hot pink...ha..I got to choose the colour...i tot that:" since I was so "chum4", I might as well choose a happier colour....

Then I just got locked up in my parents' toilet tonight for two hours...and how terribly long 2 hours can feel...Oh my goodness gracious...I figured out that I can survive for few days without food and drink water from the basin, but staying in the small toilet with no-one's company...hearing the phone and not being able to pick up the phone...it was a scary feeling...luckily me sis and her friends came to me rescue...I tot of many things in the toilet....even though I always say that I'm not afraid of death but when I tot of how I could have starved in the toilet if my sister wasn't at home and it happened on a weekday, I would never have a chance to blog like this...and the feeling's pretty unpleasant. How happy I was to get out of the toilet...OMG....thank you for letting me out....i could have shouted my lungs out and no one would have heard me...

Pretty down on my luck recently, but no worries, things will get better...luv u guys out there...=)....going to bring me phone into the toilet next time...=P

你是一杯什么样的饮料？

2008-10-04T11:40:00.000-07:00

我曾经这样写过：我所期待的爱情并不时那种轰轰烈烈的，我只偏爱那种淡淡地感受到的小小甜蜜。也许我是一杯不折不扣的白开水。一杯不起眼，但需要的时候，喝下去就感觉超棒的白开水。

我想我宁愿做这一杯白开水，等待或追寻一位懂得欣赏我这杯白开水的人。也许我会碰到另一杯白开水？我想我永远也不想改变，跟那个人在一起我可以完完全全做杯白开水，我不需要伪装自己成为果汁或咖啡。我希望我也能像阿拓（注*）一样，将所有的人看成透明，世界所以很简单，也很有趣。

你呢？你又是一杯什么样的饮料呢？

注*：阿拓是九把刀"等一个人的咖啡"里头的男主角

只是好朋友？

2008-09-14T22:53:00.000-07:00

最近开始阅读台湾作者，橘子的书。其中有一本是《只是好朋友？！〉〉其中有些话让我想了不少。
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“从朋友变情人有个好处是，因为两个人已经熟到了某个程度，所以可以省略初交时的尴尬期”。
“那如果从情人变为朋友呢？”
“那会更珍贵。因为我们相爱过，我们失去过，所以我们会更了解对方，更懂得珍惜这份得来不易的友情”。
“那如果从朋友变成情人，又从情人变成朋友呢？”
“那我会希望你是个比我还幸福的朋友”。

“因为能当朋友始终珍贵，能够相爱是种珍贵，在世界上几百亿的人当中，我们遇见彼此，我们变成朋友，然后我们心动，我们勇敢，我们相爱，就算最后由变回朋友，我会希望对方是比我还幸福的人，因为我们拥有过两次珍贵的机会”。

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男生和女生之间真的可以纯正的友谊吗？我想也许是吧。书中的主角有感而发：“我相信每个人都有这么一个朋友，因为对方太难得了，所以不忍心动情，跟那种人在一起的时候会有一种温暖且自在的感觉，那感觉并不是出自与激情的感动，而是来自于彼此的了解”。

就算她最终还是跟那位男生在一起。不过这也只是故事吧。

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那么喜欢一个人跟爱一个人有什么分别？橘子在《你的爱情，我在里面〉〉这样写着：

"简单，喜欢是友情，爱则是爱情”。
“两者有可能同时并存吗？”
“那对方肯定是你错过不行的人”。

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写了这么多，只能说：真烦！

Do we all have the will power?

2008-08-31T22:16:00.000-07:00

I have seen it happen twice within a span of 1 month...my patients were doing ok, not too bad, but ok...able to sit out in the chair and talk a little...no doubt a little grumpy at times, as most patients are anywayz....then when the doctor speaks to them about their illness, their prognosis which is not optimistic, the vicious cycle begins from that point...they start looking tired and empty sometimes....they begin to lose the spirit and just 5 days, a time of merely less than a week, they are gone....at least physically no longer on this earth...it's scary...how important the human will power and spirit is....that's probably why sometimes certain people can live longer than expected and survive illnesses...it's the will power, i guess......Will I have it? if I know I may go soon, will I have the will I used to think I have....i have no answers to this....sigh~....all i can say is that i will do my best for all of you around me....tanks pple....**

太聪明

2008-08-24T08:23:00.000-07:00

太聪明-陈绮贞

总以为迷一般难懂的我
在你了解了以后其实也没什么
我总是忽冷又忽热隐藏我的感受
只是怕爱你的心被你看透

猜的没错想得太多不会有结果
被你看穿了以后我更无处可躲
我开始后悔不应该太聪明的卖弄
只是怕亲手将我的真心葬送

我猜着你的心要再一次确定
遥远的距离都是因为太过聪明
要猜着你的心要再一次确定
混乱的思绪都是因为太想靠近你

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你有试过想关心一个人，可是却很不自己的约束自己的感觉吗?
就是那种有冲动要靠近，可是却很理智地告诉自己不能吗？
原来这种感觉真不好受。

因为知道没结果，而不想让自己陷下去。也许就因为这样，我开始选择拉开我们之间的距离。我开始学习不这么在乎你。我更开始尝试安静的不说话，因为我已经不想再让喜欢你的心太赤裸的表露出来，特别在别人面前。这些对于你来说和逻辑吗？

可是我们之间的默契难道只有我感觉得到吗？难道一切都只是我的幻想吗？或许只有这样才能解释我们现在有点尴尬的局面吧。这一切的一切都只是我的胡思乱想吧。或许我不应该再表现得太坚强，或许我也不因该再假装那么的不在乎，或许我该学会表露脆弱，或许这样你才能够更了解我现在的感受，或许这样你才了解我需要的并不是那句对不起。我只是想知道我感觉到的默契是不是真实的，就这么简单罢了。

我说得太多了吧。我想。好累。原来我还是宁愿永远是傻的，不想太聪明了。

What would I do if I knew I were dying~~

2008-07-30T23:50:00.000-07:00

My patient passed away on the second day of my "Grief and Bereavement" course. Somehow the course felt different after her passing. She seemed to be closer to me than I imagined. I wonder how she felt just before she passed away. Maybe she felt released and maybe she was comforted. Then I began to wonder, what would I feel if I knew that I was going to die?

Dat's why it is important to live each moment to its fullest because we never know when we would pass on because for all you know, I could not return from Mount Ophir. This is not being morbid, it is the truth because anything and everything can just happen at anytime.

So, what would I do if I had time to prepare for my death?
-spend more time with my family (cook more dishes, go to the park, watch tv, chat.....)
-meet up or call my friends up more often
-eat my favourite foods with my family and friends
-start writing a daily diary
-prepare farewell messages to everyone important in my life
-take all my photos and put them altogether
-listen to my CDs one by one
-playing and singing on my guitar and piano for my family and friends
-reading books on how to cope with dying
-plan my funeral like how I would be planning for my wedding (it's equally important k, oreven more important!!)

Dat was about all I had for the session this morning. It is definitely difficult to face death and probably we will never know how it really feels until we are nearing it. Perhaps thinking about it at times reminds us that while good times come, they do not last forever. So we have to really treasure what we have, even as simple as a "Good morning" or a "Good afternoon" or a "Good night" or a "My baby".

Isn't dat how life is? So even if I won't be around tmr, I know that I have embraced life and will always be loved, cherished and remembered.

And for now, love all of you guys, good night.....

~no more cha cha~~

2008-07-30T23:30:00.000-07:00

Today, a patient of mine passed away, after seeing her for almost a month...seeing her so frail and lethargic....seeing her when she was better sitting out of bed, ambulating.....seeing her when she asked me to ask the doctor to just let her die.....seeing her when she deteriorated on Mon....I promised her that we will dance rumba the next time we walked...we only did "cha-cha" the other day....and from this day onwards, there would be no more cha-chas.

爱情：它到底是什么？

2008-07-26T23:20:00.000-07:00

说真的，我从来没有谈过恋爱，所以我一直想知道爱一个人的感觉到底是什么样的呢？今天在《周刊》上就有这么一篇文章。

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作者是这样写的：

在一个很忙碌的早上，大约是8点半，一个大约八十岁的老人家，想找医生帮他拆线。他很赶；但医生正在帮人家做手术，所以他一直在等，不停的看表。当时有个护士不是太忙，看着老人家好像很急似的，自己又没什么好做。“好吧！让我来帮他拆线吧！”护士小姐叫那个伯伯先坐下，然后再把伤口上的布一层一层的拆下，一边拆一边和那个伯伯闲聊。

护士小姐好奇地问：“为什么你这么赶？”
老人家说：“是呀！因为我约了人，在九点碰面，真不好意思，麻烦了你！”
护士好奇地想:八十多岁的老人家因该不用上班，什么事情让她要赶九点准时到呢？
老人家说：“是呀。。。是呀。。。我要赶去老人疗养院，陪我的老婆吃早餐。”
护士小姐更加好奇：“原来到疗养院啊，没有什么嘛？”
老人家答：“啊！没事了，柏金森症罢了，都好一段日子了。”
护士小姐帮他拆好了线，看一看表：“哎呀！你快迟到，怕不怕你的太太会担心你呀？”
老人说：“不会，这五年来她都不认得我了，我去不去，其实她都不知道。”
护士小姐追问：“她已经不认得你五年之久！你还每天早上准时去？”
老人笑笑，拍拍护士的手说：“她不认得我，但我认得她，那就可以了。” 跟着他块块转身走了。护士小姐看着他的背影，眼泪慢慢的落下来了，她想：这就是我需要的爱情。

真正的爱情不只是讲浪漫气氛；真正的爱情是接受，接受以前的对方，现在的对方和将来的对方。无论她以前是怎样，现在或将来是怎样。

快乐的人不一定要最好的，快乐的人认识把他所拥有的都看成是最好的。

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或许这样的爱情也是我想要的吧。我向往的爱情并不是那种一见钟情，或者轰轰烈烈的爱情。我向往的爱情也许就是那种简简单单，很单纯的默契，有一点像把一杯温温的密茶喝下去一般。不需要太甜，只要那淡淡的，留在口中的甜蜜与满足。这样我也许就快乐了吧！特别喜欢作者最后的那一句，知足常乐的道理也就是那么的简单却又不简单！

希望大家一起学会活在现在，不要一直想着别人有的好处，也要想想自己和身边的人所拥有的好处。这样一来，幸福就或许靠我们更近了！

Mount Ophir '08

2008-07-15T02:22:00.000-07:00

Finally, the long awaited climb of the year 08, Mount Ophir!!! Big thanks to Kong Beng who organized this event!! And a picture of all who went up the mountain and conquered it!!

CP team=)

Jiawei, Me and Yiqin (and Alicia in the background) Yeah!! at checkpoint 5!!

Lao gong(Yiqin) and Lao Po-s

Team 3 (before climbing)....Kong beng, Jeremy, Ringo, Ming Fei, Cindy, Roselyn, Me, Elizabeth

At checkpoint 5...=)

Jiawei, Yiqin, Janius, Wing Kuen, Ringo, Han Teck, Vernetta, Me

Yes, and last but not least, roommates of room 210

Me, Alicia, Elizabeth and Cindy.....=p

This trip must have been one of my most harrowing experiences and it has made me realize the importance of being alive and how lovely friendship can be. I guess when I was at the steep rocks of mount ophir with just a rope in my hands, as I thought of my family and as Kong Beng helped me from behind and friends cheered me on, I realize that my life encompasses so much more than just being me. It's everyone around that makes my presence on this earth worthwhile.

I just love everyone, everyone who was so supportive who displayed fantastic teamwork amongst the dark, the tiredness and the odds.

Dedicated To:

Kong Beng: I can never thank enough for everything, big brother!....thanks for giving me the courage to continue and completing the climb....=)

Gretel and Jordan: For leading the way while coming down and for the cheeky smiles you guys have.....

Sarah: For the many lending hands you gave especially the one at the rocks!....I owe you big time for that one....=)

Ringo: Mr Judebox of the trip and "Uncle" survivor of the trip...Thanks for all the support you've given me too...=)

Cindy dajie: For your spirit and never say die attitude....and your functional nagging...=p

Christina princess/aunty: For your funny ways and gu-niang-ness...i hoped sliding helped...=p

Elizabeth: Woah!! You were just great to have continued all the way with that cramp...

Jeremy: Thanks for the glove man!

And well, it's probably enough mountain climbing for me in a while I guess....Till then, I'm really grateful for this trip as it has brought us together in so many amazing ways we would never have known....And may we carry the spirit of determination and friendship throughout the rest of our lives=)....

Yan's 21st bday!!! Yeah!!

2008-07-07T08:05:00.001-07:00

Me sister's 21st b'day celebration!!

Me sis and our maternal side family

Me sis and our paternal side family

Me sis and cousins

and her first brave feat just after her bday...shaving bald to support efforts for the Children Cancer Foundation....
she and her bf before and after the shave...=P

To support their efforts, pls go to the website www.ccf.org.sg to pledge ur donations ya?...=)

Clock's back!!!

2008-07-07T07:59:00.000-07:00

Clock is finally back!!...Sorry for this late update...this is us having dinner at Waruku (Central)... Strangely, we did not have a pic of us five together...aiyo~~..and of cause Clock is the star with her long hair!!! =)

A tribute to women~~: Why do women cry?

2008-05-11T22:10:00.000-07:00

Anyways, this post's got nothing to do with religion and it does not mean that men don't cry....ha+.....found this on Lenia's website and I thought it's pretty meaningful....dedicated to all mothers on Mother's Day!!

A little boy asked his mother, 'Why are you crying?'
'Because I'm a woman,' she told him.
'I don't understand,' he said.
His Mom just hugged him and said, 'And you never will.'
Later the little boy asked his father, 'Why does mother seem to cry for no reason?' '
All women cry for no reason,' was all his dad could say.

The little boy grew up and became a man, still wondering why women cry.
Finally he put in a call to God.
When God got on the phone, he asked,
'God, why do women cry so easily?'
God said: 'When I made the woman she had to be special.
I made her shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world, yet gentle enough to give comfort.
I gave her an inner strength to endure childbirth and the rejection that many times comes from her children.
I gave her a hardness that allows her to keep going when everyone else gives up, and take care of her family through sickness and fatigue without complaining.
I gave her the sensitivity to love her children under any and all circumstances, even when her child has hurt her very badly.
I gave her strength to carry he! r husband through his faults and fashioned her from his rib to protect his heart.
I gave her wisdom to know that a good husband never hurts his wife, but sometimes tests her strengths and her resolve to stand beside him unfalteringly.
And finally, I gave her a tear to shed.
This is hers exclusively to use whenever it is needed.'

'You see my son,' said God, 'the beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she carries, or the way she combs her hair.
The beauty of a woman must be seen in her eyes, because that is the doorway to her heart - the place where love resides.'

我很好。。。

2008-04-13T23:00:00.000-07:00

刘若英-我很好

沙发上睡着孤单冷醒的破晓冷的面条热的泪痕啤酒在苦笑当时的煎熬当时的心痛如绞天终于亮了遗憾终于退潮终于能够恨不再疯泪不再掉心不跑一定会有一个人一段新的美好

谁让我拥抱谁让我再一次心跳就算爱情让我再次的跌倒伤痕也要是一种骄傲谁让我拥抱谁让我疯狂的心跳就算明天整个城市要倾倒也让我爱到最后一秒

丢掉电影票删掉信件跟合照洗了床单剪了头发清空了烦恼恨可以很小小到眼泪能冲掉我现在很好可以重新起跑终于能够恨不再疯泪不再掉心不跑一定会有一个人一段新的美好

谁让我拥抱谁让我再一次心跳就算爱情让我再次的跌倒伤痕也要是一种骄傲谁让我拥抱谁让我疯狂的心跳就算明天整个城市要倾倒也让我爱到最后一秒

地铁涌出了人潮幸福涌出了预兆我会找回当初对爱天真的霸道

谁让我拥抱谁让我再一次心跳就算爱情让我再次的跌倒伤痕也要是一种骄傲谁让我拥抱谁让我疯狂的心跳就算明天整个城市要倾倒也让我爱到最后一秒

尽情的。。。

2008-02-24T21:16:00.000-08:00

刚刚看完了《我叫金三顺》，这应该是一个很久以前的韩剧吧。。。里头有几句话送给大家：

“尽情的去爱吧，就像你从没受伤过。。。
尽情的跳舞吧，就像没有人在看着。。。
尽情的唱歌吧，就像没有人在听着。。。”

我自己就补上这一句：尽情的生活吧，就像生命只在这一秒钟。。。

大家，加油！

金鼠来拜年！！

2008-02-03T22:12:00.000-08:00

你看着三张照片前面的那只老鼠。。。（上至下）二妹的，小妹的和我的！！哈哈！！

哇！！老鼠聚在一起迎新春哟！！

做黄梨挞了！！。。。好多好多的老鼠喔!!....很可爱对吧！！！。。。。

生病了。。。

2008-01-22T07:44:00.000-08:00

这应该是我这五年来病的最久的一次，虽然不是很重。整个鼻子塞住的感觉真的quite horrible, having sinus is bad man!!! And it's yellow and thick...GROSS!!! Sorry for being a little bit 恶心here...haha+...Working in a MRSA ward is not gd man...whole day go hospital then I feel my sinus coming back...I'm alright when I'm outside!!...So I have decided that me need to jog tmr...haven't jog since last Mon....need to breathe in fresh air...maybe like dat my nose will clear up and I will stop being nasal!!....

been having fun with the guitar I borrowed from XXY for my guitar lessons...I can play Yankee Doodle and Amazing Grace....haha+....update u guys about my guitar classes k?....=)...anywayz, it's time to sleep....*yawnz*.....nitez**

柠檬与蜜糖~~

2008-01-09T23:29:00.000-08:00

今天天气较为晴朗，我自己一个人跑着步，享受着那雨过天晴的空气，感觉好好啊。。。然后到gym做了push-ups and crunches, 再加上一些chest-press, 还有太极。。。心情果然没那么沉重了。。。

还剩下最后的一粒柠檬，我决定把它加在蜜糖里，然后也加了一点水。稍微先酸了一点，但加上那微甜的honey。。。感觉也没昨天那么难过了。。。原来要坚强是不容易的，我一定会加油的喔！

柠檬的滋味~~

2008-01-08T22:29:00.000-08:00

今天晚上的天气有点郁闷，也有点莫名其妙的遮满雾。突然间想喝杯酒，但想到明天要做工，我打消这个念头。所以踏进超市，买了柠檬。

柠檬够清新，该可以拨开那纳闷的雾帘，我是这样想。柠檬拿了两粒，切成四个半，用手用力的按，再用汤匙把种子舀出来。该不该放水呢？我想了一下。还是不要。

先是，第一口小口的试喝了一下，还好酸中带甜。再大口的喝了下去，就开始真的酸了。深呼吸，再一次，还是好酸。最后那一口，忘不了那酸，酸到眼泪差点留下。

可是柠檬汁四口喝完了，眼泪没流，心却在颤抖。可惜柠檬汁四口喝完了，天气还是郁闷的。只是柠檬汁四口喝完了，暂时还是无法谅解自己。

相信

2008-01-06T21:52:00.000-08:00

也许相信，才可以让一切回归自然吧！
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孙燕姿-相信

突然觉得我只是一个人有点孤单浅浅的忧郁
我不知道明天会不会很美丽
虽然今天天很蓝而云很白风很凉

今天日记空白没有关系不必每件事情都在意
不想工作不想困扰自己不必刻意想你
该是我的总会来就算挑战我不走开

一点点你的微笑已经让我觉得温暖
我还不懂坚持正好让我学会去爱
我曾经看见困难变得胆小不够勇敢
但还是要相信相信感觉相信简单

有一天等我懂得现实也许更灰心
至少现在让我去相信

我还是会相信相信感觉相信简单

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请不要说对不起，因为每一个人都有喜欢一个人的权利，不是吗？
只是想说，喜欢一个人时，就让我理智中有那一点幻想，可以吧？
我不知道我需要多少时间，我只知道勇敢。那就这样吧。。。

It's Year 2008!!!

2008-01-01T23:42:00.000-08:00

Hey, everyone! It's the coming of the new year!!....Time just sprints along without us realising....and it's the Year of the Mouse and my zodiac yr has returned after completing one round....Ahhh!!!....Can't believe I'm going to be 24 this year, just after my 23rd birthday has passed!

We had a great countdown this year with Gretel's recommendation. We hung out somewhere opposite Esplanade...we are not allowed to reveal where it is according to Gretel...=P....Yiqin, Gretel and I hung around there to book places right in front of the Singapore river since 8 plus...it was so cold and were literally "吃风"-ing....hee+...then XXY and Loo Wee came over just in time at 12am to catch the fireworks....Big thanks to XXY for his warm drinks!! Saved us from the cold....Paiseh Yiqin, should have asked to get u something else due to ur sorethroat....

Well, I like this pic alot....courtesy of XXY's camera.....=).....

What holds in the new year for us? I have no idea....but I know I definitely want to:

1) learn more at work and continue to enjoy time with my patients and colleagues

2) appreciate and be with my family more often *less running out at night*...hee+

3) spend time with my friends also, at least once every 2-3 months...

4) try to operate my finances more effectively and pay my bills on my own and SAVE!!!

5) start learning the guitar and maybe I can sing for leisure at 民歌餐厅....

6) continue practising my Tai Chi

7) continue kayaking on Saturdays I dun work

8) keep in touch with my Aussie neighbours and Tai Chi friends

9) and finally, eat less and exercise more...haha+

I hope I didn't miss anything...if anything, I would post again...~~....=p

Anyways, here's wishing everyone a great year ahead k?....

Let's all enjoy each moment in life and live it best!!!

Big hugs, thanks!

2007-12-30T12:11:00.000-08:00

I promised that I will put up the grp picture on my birthday, so here it is!!...This pic in courtesy of Aunty!....Thanks for the surprise party everyone! It was so well-planned dat I realli had no inkling that there was something going on....gd job, man!!... haha+...anywayz, big thank you to you guys for making my day after a hard half day's work!....It's coming to the end of the year already, best wishes to everyone as the new year arrives! 祝大家家庭，感情，事业都一帆风顺！！加油啦！！

A Mother's Love

2007-12-25T01:41:00.000-08:00

"Mum, mum, I'm hungry!"

"Son, you just had breakfast!"

"But I'm still hungry, mum! hungry lah, mum...."

"Where's the food, Mum?"

"Scared of you, son! Here's your food". Munch, munch**

She thinks and smiles:" He's really enjoying his food!"

知己

2007-12-23T05:32:00.000-08:00

Yiru sang this 张惠妹's song：知己 and taught me how to sing it during this week end's ktv. It's a beautiful song dedicated to one person. 他应该懂得。

還好變成了知己　起碼隨時看到你
哭泣或歡天喜地　可以陪你
讓這個故事繼續　
結局　我們都如此好奇
肯定可以一起有驚喜　
魔力或奇蹟讓它隨意上映
（是没有差到哪里相處的還算和氣　
就差那一句　我愛你）

可惜不能靠得太近但仍心存感激　
好散好聚我們都慶幸　
一時很難去解釋這樣微妙的距離　
也許我們都很滿意　

感情是我們一向來很尊重的事情　
現在就緊緊的維繫彼此關係　
長大了也許對於某種感動的東西　
一點點都珍惜

都得來不易　比如像你

A message to him:

谢谢你的聆听，也感激你的坦白。那些话我不知道憋了多久终于还是说出来了。你说我很勇敢，我想我的勇敢是这六年累积出来的吧！希望真的没有吓着你太多。我很少在blog上面那么坦白，其实这也是我第一次这么明白的写下我的感觉。你不会介意有别人会看到这一段留言吧。我只是突然有这一股冲动, 也许也代表了我心中的一种释怀。

你也读过词了吧？歌词里的“好散好聚”doesn’t apply to us though因为我们没有曾经在一起，所以不会有分散的一天。也因为我们的友情永不断。我真的很珍惜我们之间的那种信任，也谢谢我们能够渐渐更了解彼此。在这六年里，起初对于你的那种所谓热恋的感觉现在或许已不再如此的强烈，可是我发觉另一种感觉出现，而就是那种“微妙的距离”。我想你也应该明白的。

我一直怕对你坦白，因为我怕失去你这个朋友。可是今天和你说了那一段话之后，我很安慰的是我们可以这样真切地和彼此说出感受。我不再怕失去这段友谊，我只可以说我们的友谊一定只会更加坚固，一定不会散。我不知道为什么有这种想法，但这想法非常的强烈。我并不否定我有一点失望，可是我的感动却多于难过。是真的，没骗你喔。

我今天是不是话特别多？我记得以前我们meet up 的时候，每次都是你话比较多，现在我们meet up, 其实我发觉我话多了。这真好，没以前那么紧张和口吃，哈哈。现在才发现你不吃榴莲，还有一点怕高。对不起，不应该在网上爆料！*sorry* 原来关于你这位好朋友，我还有好多好多的不知道。

谢谢你礼拜六和我朋友串通的surprise party! 这是你六年里给我的第一个生日礼物。不否认就是因为感动，所以才对你坦白的。这或许真的是一种友情的升华，你该了解，对吗？当你在网上放上我给你生日礼物的照片时，在澳洲的我也何尝不是欢喜。Glad dat the wallet is still coming in handy! I really appreciate it, thanks so much!!

真的就像歌曲中的词一样， “得来不易”我们之间的友情，我们都会好好珍惜对吧！你应该没有读完这段话有任何惊吓吧？因为我觉得你今天在说电话的时候比我
stressed．我们以后还要一起去gym, 去play badminton, 因为这友情依然继续，我们会一起成长，更明白彼此。因为生命太短暂，我不想有任何遗憾。

最后，在这里深深祝福你。你会慢慢康复的。时间会冲淡一切，我相信你一定会更坚强。祝福我自己。也祝福我们之间的友谊细水长流。有任何不开心或开心的要一起分享喔！I’m just a phone call or internet wire away….hee+…让我们为未来加油吧！

生命它也太短了吧！

2007-11-26T05:40:00.000-08:00

也许这世上有些梦美在永远握不到。。。恳请大家不要等待那摸不到的梦，要守着我们身旁珍贵的人和事。。。其实生命真的很脆弱，它总在我们意想不到的时候结束。对每一个人的亲人来说，最亲的人走了，我想都是意想不到的吧。所以世上有太多可能或不可能的事，我们不该揣测哪个可能，哪个不可能。我们只要拥抱我们身边的人，事和物，不要多想，想做就去做，才不会枉费我们这辈子。

他们好年轻，还有好多事等着他们去做，然而他们的生命就此画上了一个美丽的据点。他们会活在每个认识他们的人的心中，回忆它本来就是美好的。他们活得精彩，活得灿烂。他们让我们了解生命的热忱，生命的存在。。。让我们不要再有遗憾，每天我们都要活似那是我们人生的最后一天一样。因为事事总难料，就像医院里每一个病人的生命一样难料。

亲爱的朋友，你们安息吧！谢谢你们给予我们的教诲，也谢谢你们在我们的生命中出现，也谢谢你们让我们曾经参与过你们的生命，哪怕就是那一霎那。不过那一霎那已成了永远。永远的想念，再见吧，朋友！！

Long time no see!!

2007-10-28T06:57:00.000-07:00

Hey, everyone...!!! My blog has been stagnant for quite a while and so I will start penning down on a Sunday night at 10pm..=)....Just finished my CPE last Fri on"Rehabilitation in Cognitive Impaired Individuals", it's such a relief!! a slight break for about 1 wk and time to "qiong" for my ICU test....time is passing just too quickly!!....it's already officially 3 months into work...that's 1/4 year!!....

Life in TTSH has been great so far...besides the fact that we have stats and a certain level of stress to bear with, my Supervisor and team members have been really supportive!!....We also have lots of fun togther....We went to the movies, some of us even went to ktv together....Even my first clubbing experience was with my physio friends.....i think I'm starting to be a little too mischievous for my parents' liking!....but if I dun do it now, when can I be this crazy...haha+....anywayz, some pics here for you guys to see first...=)

Jenny (Neuro-Geri Head) and Lihuan, always young and happy!!!

Julianna, Me and my Supervisor, Lai Aik!!!

My KTV Kakis from TTSH: Gretel, Ringo, Yi Qin, Jiawei!!! @ K-ster!!

Julianna, Xueting and Gretel!!!

Gretel and Huixin!!!..Huixin our k-queen!!

All and all, I'm enjoying myself at TTSH, working with my geri patients....and having fun with my colleagues/friends...!!....Hope all of you guys are also happy with what you are doing now!!...Jiayou lah!!!

在世界的中心呼喊爱！！

2007-09-22T06:45:00.000-07:00

这一两个星期来，我父母为了我眼睛的状况非常担心，至少现在扫描已经确定没有异状，大家也至少松懈了一下。否则我真是对他们的关怀弄得快要窒息。我常常觉得患病者的家属会更担心，这是我完全同意的。就像我一样，就没他们担心。就算有事，这也只是命运，我只能以自己的能力对抗，只要我没有遗憾，我又怕什么呢？一个人如果身旁有亲人和朋友，勇敢的表达对他们的关心，彼此了解对方，那已经足够了，不是吗？所以从现在开始，不要在等待，大家要有所行动，在世界的中心呼喊爱！！

双双

2007-09-08T08:26:00.000-07:00

Have you ever seen double images? 最近眼睛不知出了什么问题老是看到双影。感觉怪怪的，也不是很好受。原来视线出了问题还挺恐怖的。我想如果有一天，我居然无法看到这个世界，我会怎么办？真的，好难想象。难道大家都认为盲侠容易当吗？眼睛是人类灵魂的窗户，应该一点也没错！希望我的眼睛早点康复，也希望所有有身体缺限的人加油, 因为你们真的好勇敢啊！

只求简单。。。

2007-08-18T19:09:00.000-07:00

Haven't been writing much, have I? Ever since we came back from Sydney...=P...meant to upload the NDP pictures and I haven't too...hee+...well....but everything's pretty good now....into the 3rd week of work....made new friends...seen more people.....realising dat the real world is truely never simple .....人与人之间的互动原来可以那么的敏感和不简单。。。也许有些人说话更含有不一样的含义。。。其实这样处处揣摩别人的话意，你们不如和我直接说去。。。这样我或许不用那么辛苦拿捏。。。这样世界不就不那么复杂了吗？

有一点又开始怀念在悉尼的生活。怀念悉尼大桥，怀念悉尼剧院，怀念能吃着雪糕坐在前往Circular Quay 地铁的礼拜下午，怀念早晨跑入坟场的那种宁静，怀念那里成群的鹦鹉飞行在空中，怀念那里的朋友和邻居，怀念很多很多，甚至那里的KTV....哈哈！到底还是读书的时候无忧无虑，还是那时纯朴和实在。

但愿我们在这复杂的真实里，不要迷失自己，要凭一颗赤子之心，珍惜生活的点滴。。。

Ski-ing in Snowy Mountains!!!!

2007-07-28T18:01:00.000-07:00

Hello, 大家！！ This update has come really late....hee+.....We (Yogi, zj, yiling and me) went ski-ing from the 2nd-5th July after our attachments...to Snowy Mountains @ Thredbo....

This is Lake Jindabyne in the morning!...Look @ the moon....cool right?....We stayed @ Jindabyne and the coach brings us up to the mountains every morning....

Four of us @ Lake Jindabyne!!...Me in the Broncos scarf and my beanie.....=P...

First time we saw snow!!!...These are the snowflakes!....pretty right?

This is our ski-ing instructor, Damien!!...His smile so cute right?...haha+...I kept falling on by buttocks and luckily he didn't give up on me...hee+...Thanks alot, man!!!

The chairlift we take up to the top so dat we ski down...=p...Brrrr~~...the wind was like hitting our face...冻死人了！！

Me and the specially designed coca-cola vending machine!....with the ski-ing design....

Me and Yiling with our irregularly shaped snowman....with a leaf hat...hee+....our first snowman too...

Snowing on the 3rd day, it was like -25degree celsius (including wind chill factor)...freezing cold!!!

感想篇（二）离开悉尼

2007-07-10T19:13:00.000-07:00

这一天终于到了！这是我在悉尼的最后一个BLOG。。。要谢谢我所有太极班的老师和朋友! Thanks to Sue and all my friends in TaiChi...Thanks for the farewell lunch and your presents...and of coz, Pamela, thanks for your scarf!! It's beautiful!!...Shall put a picture of the scarf and presents on my blog when I get back to Singapore!!

Thanks to our neighbours, David and Nola, for always welcoming us into their cozy warm house and helping us whenever we needed it...Thanks for teaching us to appreciate wine and for the cheese and biscuits and french onion dips....And for all the cooking tips...!! Huge hugs to both you guys......

And finally, farewell to Sydney and to everyone over here who has been a part of our lives for this one year!!....It's been a wonderful experience!!....I'm going to really miss it here...=)..and miss my rugby games too.....

To everyone in Sydney, do take care, folks!! Will keep in touch!!......

And well, to Singapore and our families over there, we're on our way back!!....

Funfabulolous weekend!!

2007-06-23T20:42:00.000-07:00

Hey, everyone...what I'm putting on this blog is a little late but it's about great fun.....What about the F4 (fantastic, fun, fabulous, frolic) time we had on the weekend before the Queen's birthday?...=p.....ha+.....when the guys came down from Canberra for some ktv and bubble tea...~~

We sang duets and sang our hearts out during ktv...so shiok!!....haven't had such great time singing with guys voices...hah...I tink I kind of miss choir where we had the sops, altos, tenors and basses...hah+。。。。太棒了！！我们又有新的K-歌 gang!!.....哈哈！！可惜我没拍到照片。。。下来的照片是在 CHINATOWN 吃冰淇淋的时候拍的！！

Taken in "Passionflower", a dessert parlour with absolutely delisumptous ice-cream which is so sticky and creamy......From left: Yuwei, Jian Yang, Wei Xiang, Me, Xueting and Yogi!!

This is the big plate of ice cream we had...yummy...tink we had lychee, mango, green tea, cookies and cream (or "Oli-oh" termed by Wei Xiang), coffee and some hazelnut flavour...hee+...can really remember the flavours...=P

About this picture, it has a fairly long story....ha+...we were discussing what was the flavour of the icecream which was white with black speckles, and when Wei Xiang tried to say "Oreo", Jian Yang heard it as "Oli-oh", hence the term above...hah...dat's not the funniest bit, the most amusing bit was that the 2 guys couldn't stop laughing....for I tink at least 5 mins k?.....and so this is a pic of Wei Xiang who suffered from a serious bout of laughing....=P .....he has kindly agreed to let me place this pic on my blog, so pls all who read this blog, pretend you guys dun know him, if u guys do...hah....

This is a picture of Yogi and Xueting, and dat white patch is Jian Yang's finger....真会搅局。。。=P.....poor Yogi has her face covered a little...

Yuwei who had only a little ice-cream with most of the ice cream eaten by "very greedy and always hungry" Jian Yang..ha+...he just had earned this bad reputation this time.....~~

The different styles of tissue paper roses made by Yuwei and Weixiang....=p...picture courtesy of Yuwei...=)....

Yup, so dat's all about our really enjoyable weekend, despite the rain and storm raging in Sydney.....!! Good luck for ur exams, guys!!...and meanwhile, everyone at 6A Georges Ave, 加油for attachment!!.....

~~感想篇（一）

2007-06-09T13:40:00.000-07:00

嘿，大家！！想不到现在离离开悉尼就只有五个礼拜。。。时间它怎么过得如此之快。。。去年的今天，我们正准备过来这儿读书，而我们如今已剩下三个礼拜的实习了。突然之间，我舍不得这里。这里的环境，风景，邻居，朋友。。。其实这里华人多的不像是澳洲！所以除了家人不在这里之外，悉尼也不会不是一个让人留连的地方。这里其实在不少方面让我觉得更有人情味，更亲切！

平时在路上跑步或是走路，即使碰到不相识的人也会问声好，打个招呼，心情就这样简简单单的为之一爽！这里的人不吝啬于称赞，你有做得好的地方，他们会让你知道，做得不好的地方他们会好好告诉你，不会欢喜责备。或许是我碰到的人较友善，比起很多新加坡人，他们真的在某方面较原谅体谅别人。

在这样的一个环境里，我们不会害怕尝试，不会害怕失败，因为我们不会因此而被看衰。打个比方：他们可以不进大学出来工作，没有别人的眼光承受，他们没有我们担心别人的指指点点。成绩不好会世界末日吗？生命就围绕着成就一个字吗？成就的定义到底是什么？新加坡的家长为何老是喜欢把自己的孩子拿来跟别家的孩子比？要比也只能和自己比，所谓一山还有一山高，我们又能比到什么时候？在新加坡的环境里，我们就是这么的绷紧，这么的在乎。为什么就不能放下？放下对自己和身旁人的要求，不理会别人的话语，就认认真真的享受生命中的每一刻，活出自我。重要的只有现在，我们又何须对自己过不去，不断的想着过去和那未知的未来？

所以呢，从不久前，我就对自己说，不要在乎别人对你的看法，最重要是你对于自己的看法。只要我活得开心，过得充实，这是属于自己的幸福，没人能带走它。只要每个人能做到让自己快乐，那在身旁的人也会感染到你的心情，大家就可以一起享受生命。。。到那时候，就算我们离开这个世界，也不将有任何不舍。只要我们曾经开心的生存着，我们也该知足。。。其实到头来，没什么我们需要留恋的，因为能够快乐的，在那宝贵的一刻已经体会过了。。。不是吗？

说了这么多，大家不妨想想看吧！

Rambling...~

2007-05-10T06:48:00.000-07:00

It's World Tai Chi & Qigong Day every last Sat of April...Me in 老师's uniform...pink....ha++....the girl beside me is Janet, my Tai Chi mate...she's an ABC...her parents from HK..she teaches me cantonese while I teach her some chinese...hee+

Me on the ferry from Circular Quay to Darling Harbour on Sun at dusk...this was taken around 5.30pm....like this pic alot because of the way the Harbour Bridge is orientated...hee+

Sydney's CBD at dusk...look at the red streaks in the sky, beautiful right?......if not for the person's hand in the lower left hand corner...=p

A Japanese couple who posed for my camera on the ferry...hee+..so sweet!!

Before the ferry set off from Circular Quay, took some pictures...the sky is pretty pink last Sun...=)

Sydney Opera House at dusk....beautiful isn't it?

Halfway on the ferry trip and the sky was turning bright orange....!!

@ Darling Harbour....after the ferry docked....managed to catch this seagull on film...ha+...like the reflection of the lights in the water....=p

Outside our house....in the morning @ 6.30pm as I was leaving the house for attachment....noticed that the sky was pink dat day and decided to bring my camera along...ha+....took alot of pics....=)

Hope u guys enjoyed the pics....!!.....More coming this wkend with footy fun and excitement together with the patients in the spinal unit from Prince of Wales hospital....=)

Sydney Royal Easter Show (Part 3)!!!

2007-04-13T18:59:00.000-07:00

National Rugby League NRL Day, 12th April @ the Royal Easter Show!!!

NRL Day was held on the Cattle Lawn....with rugby clinics run by the rugby players and kids enjoying footy fun!!!....

This picture is a little blur...but the little girl very cute right?...haha+...her hair so funny....And the rugby ball seems larger than her head....=)

The Cronulla Sharks from Sutherland....Never saw them play before but got their autographs anyway...=).....They are Brett Kimmorley, and Craig Stapleton and Phil Leuluai.....

Only the players of the NSW teams are at the Easter Show...since my favourite Broncos team isn't here...I took a picture with their mascot!...Clock thinks he looks like a ugly power ranger monster!....haha+....Go Broncos!!!

The Pentrith Panthers!!!.....The NSW team I support now!.....Took me so long to get this picture because the man in front kept blocking my view....ha+....That's Luke Priddis, Matthew Cross and Frank Puletua!!!

Luke Priddis was so friendly!!!...he agreed to take the picture even though he was already changed out of his team shirt and ready to go off...haha+...He was saying "Cheese!!" when he took this photo with me...hee+...He's the co-captain of Penrith Panthers and is playing position of hooker...jersey no.9....=)

Luke Priddis at one of the stations during the rugby clinics...haha+.....they literally let the little boy walk through the tackle blocks!!

Ahhh!....Frank Puletua!!! He's from Auckland, NZ....playing prop/ second rower for Penrith....think he's cute!!...ha+....Kiwis are so friendly too!!....=p....He's like 1.9m lor...so he had to lower himself down to take this picture....ha+...so paiseh!!....

My NRL soveniors from the Easter Show!.....Yeah!!!...I had a really awesome time!!! Think I was the only Asian girl there, q-ing for the autographs and photos...ha+... so embarassing....=P...So I had a great sense of achievement after the whole event! Glad I went for it...even though I was alone...!....ha+.....just had to be more thick skinned....=)...even had to get the players to write down their names beside their signatures because I had no idea who some of them were...hee+....

Anyways, a super duper big Thank You to all the rugby players who were at the show that day for making the day an unforgettable one for me....and everyone involved in the event for creating the chance for all footy fans to be this close up to the players!!....It was truely fantastic and exhilarating...!!.....And too all the rugby clubs, all the best for the rest of NRL...and of course, go Brisbane Broncos and Penrith Panthers!!!!

Sydney Royal Easter Show (Part 2)!!!

2007-04-13T17:58:00.000-07:00

Hi, 大家！！Back again with more pictures of farm animals...First up, are one of the largerst animals on the easter show!!....Cattle!!....They are so huge....just look at their size!!....

These are one of the many species of cattle....Sugarloaf Herefords.....not too sure how they got their names.....=P......For some reason, looking at the cattle makes me not to want to eat beef anymore.....but will I have the determination?

These 2 cattle were playing with each other before I took this picture....thought they look very 相亲相爱！！

If you guys are observant enough, u might see what's coming out from the cattle's bottom....=P...any guesses?...Right, sure you are spot on!!!.....yup, he just BO (bowels out)....The exhibition was quite dirty with all the "shit" lying around....had to be realy careful as I walked.....ha+

"Oh, how cooling!!! I love to bathe....!! I want more more.....Ahhh!!!...So shiok!!!..I feel so clean...!"

“嘿，各位，我的头发有没有乱！乱要跟我说啊。。。我会叫他们修美一点的！！”

She was salivating so much....I decided to take a picture...haha+....so cute....I like their eyes.....just observe her eye lashes...I thought they look like human eyes....have so much feeling in them....=)....Doesn't she look like a shy lady...?....ha+

Now, for the pigs!!!....Mother Pig is feeling hungry and she needs more energy to feed her piglets, who have yet to wean off from her milk....hee+

“我好饿啊!! 别跟我抢啦！！我要喝多一点！”

These piglets are born at the Easter Show itself last Sunday...So they were only 4 days old when I took this picture...=P.....so cute right?...They are from the "Saddleback" species....=)

These saddlebacks are 2 and a 1/2 weeks old.....!!....Can you notice that they have developed more muscles compared to the younger four days old?? I like their pattern...so special!!

Kids enjoying pony rides....ha+....I'm definitely too heavy for the small ponies....=P

One of Australia's endangered wildlife species...called the Bilby!!....It looks like a rat and a bunny...found only in a small part of Queensland....Conservation efforts are geared up to save this species too....bought a Bilby handphone chain and postcard....hopefully a little helps the Bilby fund too!!......

Well, guys...hang on and the next section is coming up....on NRL day at the Easter Show!!!....

Sydney Royal Easter Show (Part 1)!!

2007-04-13T07:42:00.000-07:00

It's the Royal Easter Show @ Olympic Park that's going to last 2 weeks, from 5th April to 18th April!!...It's really a huge event in Sydney!!

Telstra Stadium @ Olympic Park, from the Ferris Wheel....there's some rain droplets on the upper right hand corner....hee+.....because it rained in the afternoon...=)

The Easter Carnival from the top!!......Look @ the crowd!!

From the ferris wheel again!!! My first time sitting on the ferris wheel!!

This is another Ferris wheel!!....so Colourful!!!!

The same ferris wheel above, @ night!!.....=)...There's someone's curly hair at the bottom right hand corner....haha+

Got this shot in the sheep farm area....so curly hair that covers her/his eyes!!.....Look @ the cute horn....haha+....

Have you ever thought pigeons could be so pretty and elegant!!...Used to not like them....hee+...thought that they were quite dirty and spread diseases.....Well, there's going to be more pictures below.....

Mrs Queen Magnificent!!! I'm not too sure which breed this pigeon is from....but just look at the feathers around its neck and head.....At first she was turning her head towards the wall of the cage, too shy....hee+...then finally got this pic when she turned.....=)

Last picture for this section...ha+...Q-mo2 pigeon!!!...hahahah+......It's a Frillback pigeon!!....See the feathers go beyond her feet.....and spread like a fan...=P.....Pretty pigeon!!

Okie that's all now...for part one....for the next one.....for more farm animals and some footy fun!!!

Crazy Rugby Night @ Aussie Stadium

2007-04-06T18:57:00.000-07:00

It's Good Friday yesterday but the amazing part of it was that Yogi and I were present for a live NRL match between the Brisbane Broncos and Sydney Roosters @ Aussie Stadium!!

The logo of Aussie Stadium...Yogi says it reminded her of TJ's logo....haha+...funny thing was the colours are the club colours for Brisbane Broncos....=)

Entrance to Aussie Stadium @ 6.30pm on Good Friday!

We bought our tickets about 1 mth ago and got pretty gd seats with a great view! Things got all the more exciting when I saw the rugby field...Bright and green and just breathtaking....=p...How exciting!!! Can't wait to see Lockyer, Karmichael, Shaun Barrigan, Hodges!!!

Friday Night Footy starting soon!! Go Brisbane Broncos!!!

Autumn nights are quite cold now in Sydney! We bought 2 cups of beer to warm ourselves up...=P I think the black beer tastes like soy sauce!...Eeeks....

Fireworks @ the start of the match!!...and the scoreboard...!!

A scrum during the 2nd half of the game!...That's Lockyer, captain of the Broncos in his no. 6 jersey!! Ahhh!!! 疯了!! There were very few Asians and definitely none around us that supported the Broncos...But at least we were lucky to have many Broncos fans around us!...We thought we would get hammered in the pool of Roosters fans...So me and Yogi just cheered our hearts out!....Go Lockyer!! Karmichael!! Hodges!! Shaun Barrigan!! Brent Tate!! Petero Civoniceva!! 真得疯了！可是感觉和气氛都好棒！！

It rained 20mins into 2nd half and Oh My God, it was super cold....me and Yogi took out our umbrellas....and just look @ the blurry view of the Broncos and Roosters in play....it was pretty heavy the rain....=P....*brrrrr*...Most of us Broncos fans stayed on...braving the rain and supporting our team!!

At the end of the match, Broncos won!!! Yeah!!! Broncos and Roosters exchange handshakes at full-time...=)...What a wonderful play of rugby!!

The final scoreboard at full time. 10-32 to the Broncos!! Their first win this NRL season and many more to come!....Go, BRONCOS!!! 加油！

Manly Beach!!

2007-03-24T21:25:00.000-07:00

Hi, 大家！Yesterday, Yogi and me went to Manly beach...it was such a sunny and welcoming day on the beach...took quite a number of pictures...enjoy, guys!!

This was a huge luxury cruise,named "Sapphire Princess", that stopped over @ Sydney harbour. Just look at its size compared to the Sydney Opera House (below)...it really is huge!!

And this is of course, the Sydney Opera House once again! Still looking grand..=)...This picture was also taken on board the ferry on way to Manly.

Can you see Sydney Tower in this picture? (more towards the left) This is Sydney's Central Business District...

Finally, Manly, here we come!!..This is the Manly wharf...=)

Manly Beach, on a glorious day during autumn!!

I just love the waves here, so fun and clean!!

Me and Yogi in our bikini...Look @ my fats!!! Ahhh!!!

We got stung! by this tiny blue jellyfish called the "Blue Bottle" which has extremely long tentacles. Its sting hurts so much we had to get out of the water and I started rubbing sand on my thighs and hands to distract myself from the pain. Luckily, the pain lasted only about half hour. Apparently, the tides yesterday were washing all these jellyfish up to shore. The lifeguard announced something strange like this over the PA system," When you are stung, you are stung. There is no cure."...haha+...

Where I got stung....slightly red on my lower thigh...=P

Back @ Circular Quay at 5.30pm...it started raining cats and dogs!! The seagulls are having a really gd time though...hee+

Double Happiness

2007-03-21T05:25:00.000-07:00

Last tues, I went for a jog into Rookwood Cemetery near my house along my usual route when it started drizzling. "What bad luck!", I thought. As I continued jogging and made a turn, I looked up into the sky to find 2 rainbows!! It was beautiful and almost unbelievable!! It is difficult to see a rainbow, let alone 2 of them...Great reward for being out in the rain early in the morning at 8.45am...=)...I wished I had a camera to capture that moment...so here's a picture I found online...of a double bow...

This was exactly what I saw that very day. The lower rainbow was so bright, just like this one! The outer rainbow is fainter and the colours are actually inverted, if you observe hard enough...I didn't notice this change in the position of the colours at that point of time, but isn't it intrigueing?...There is actually a physics explanation for this phenomenon which I found online...=P

A double rainbow consists of a primary bow and a secondary bow. Raindrops that cause a primary bow are much lower in the sky than those that cause the secondary bow, and they only refract and disperse the incoming light once. The secondary bow, on the other hand, is produced from raindrops that are higher in the sky, and refract and disperse light twice.

So why are the colours inverted in the secondary rainbow? Light is refracted and dispersed twice in the drops that produce a secondary bow. This causes the colors to come out in the opposite order of the primary bow.

Are you folks following the diagram? Hee+...my physics is so bad that actually I don't really understand...any chance that the physics folks out there may want to try explain to me k??

It's the very first time I saw a rainbow from one end to the other end, there was nothing blocking my view...好漂亮啊！雨过天晴的感觉真棒！

再送大家多一份祝福，就算只是张照片，就算你们或许看过不少彩虹。希望大家天天幸福哦！

花样少年少女

2007-03-05T15:15:00.000-08:00

嘿，大家，今天我第一次以华文写字喔！最近看了花样少年少女。。。本来觉得它好无聊，但后来却觉得这偶像剧有别于其他而且看了让人不觉很开心。。。哈哈。。。真奇怪。。。原来偷偷爱着一个人是可以如此甜蜜的，就像在戏中的瑞茜和左以泉。而原来偷偷爱着一个人也可以放胆地去爱，就像金秀伊一样。

人人说吴尊很帅，他真得很帅啊；可是我却偏爱汪东城。他人大大个子，却傻乎乎的，很可爱也很单纯的感觉。在节目恋爱百分百里，跟 Ella 告白的话令我好感动。他说：“但其实有时候讲太多好像太肉麻，其实我也不是一个很会说话的人。那其实跟你相处在这时间之内，我真的有一种就是很轻松的感觉，因为我觉得因为我本来就是一个不太会表达的人，那其实跟你在一起我觉得我不用说太多话。那就是听你说，也许是你的一些小动作都让我觉得相处起来很轻松的感觉。那一直以来我也知道你也喜欢画画，那知道你这个嗜好，我也觉得很开心因为我也蛮喜欢画画的。一直喜欢就是例如说如果有一天的话，我们可以游山玩水，那如果可以一起拿起画笔，那一起画着眼前的风景，那记录下；如果是我们一起出去玩的那一刻的话，我真的会很感动。如果有那么一天的话。那我刚刚在旁边看着你，虽然就是他们嘻嘻闹闹，我也觉得很开心，因为我觉得我在旁边静静的看着你，那我就觉得很足够了。然后我就把那一刻画下来，这是我要送给你的东西。” 听了汪大东的话后，还有他那认真的表情，我也要融化掉了啦！

如果有男生这样对我说。。。哇，我的天啊！

Back to Sydney!!

2007-02-26T22:47:00.000-08:00

Hi, folks....I'm back in Sydney....so fast right?....

The flight alone was a strange and ma lu experience....why? I was actualli sitting at first row of seats that have all the TV screen and table hidden and I have absolutely no idea where to find them....I actualli thought I didn't have them which was in fact quite impossible based on SIA standards....so I had to ask the guy beside me twice and needed an air stewardess' help twice too...ha+.....like so blur lor....terrible....=P...

But I was quite happy that my pineapple tarts managed to cross the quarantine...haha+.....The TaiChi ladies said I was very lucky...=P.....haha+....they are so funny...they said the pineapple tarts tasted "beautiful"...wat an interesting description?.....=P....

When I reached home @ 6A Georges Ave, the gate could not be unlocked....someone ledged it too hard....I had to seek David's help (*David and his wife are our extremely friendly neighbours who helped us so much last time during our blackout and helped to collect our mail everyday since we left in Jan)...he had to oil the handle and hammer it before it decided to come loose and Yeah!!...finally, I could get in...=P.....Gave David and his wife pineapple tarts and they gave me Australian spinach and long beans and chilli that they grew themselves in their yard...so cool right? Such fantastic neighbours we have...=)

And yup, so I have now finished unpacking and dumped my clothes in the laundry basket...I am lazy to wash them today so I shall do them tommorrow....=P...right now, I've done some grocery shopping and am enjoying music on my laptop while typing this entry....patiently waiting for the rest to return on Fri...hee=)

Miss my family and friends back in Singapore and the food!!!! Take care da4 jia1 and seeya all in July!! Happy chu1 shi2!!

Aotearoa- Land of the Long White Cloud (Part 2)

2007-01-11T03:14:00.000-08:00

Hi, folks...!...going back to Singapore tommorrow...so I decided to finish off the second part of my post of my New Zealand trip....sorry for the delay in pics....when I get back, I'll put them in an album k??

This is the Kawarau River, where me and Yogi rafted in group of 6. The picture below is also of courtesy of Yiling, who couldn't join us that day. But lucky for us, she was there to help us out with the pictures. Thanks, Yiling!

Here we are, after we completed the one-day Milford trekking....it takes 4-5 days to finish the whole trek, we only walked on small parts of the route...hee+

Taken from one of the stopping points during trekking that day. The sky's really cloudless that day, except for a few floating ones...=)

I like this photo alot, taken with the Maoris who gave an exciting and interesting cultural performance. They performed the "Haka" or "war dance" and sang Maori tunes. It was so much fun...ha+ and we learnt that "buttock" in Maori is termed as "Nono" while our thighs are termed "Waiwai"...=P

Me and my horse, Pumpkin...such a cute name right?

This picture was taken while I was riding Pumpkin, so there could be some shaking...haha+.... this is the other end of Lake Wakatipu, Queenstown. The yellow flowers you see here are considered weeds in New Zealand...=O

One of my favourite places in South of New Zealand, Lake Tekapo. We did not stay there but stopped over on the way back to Christchurch. The water is turqoise blue, breathtaking...its colour is due to the mixing of the glacier water and "powder" of flowers growing in the region.

Me amongst the purple and pink flowers called "Lupins". They are weeds too because they are not native to New Zealand...=P

That's all folks!....will put all my pics in an album soon...took many many pictures...and seeya soon in Singapore...!....Here I come!!

Aotearoa- Land of the Long White Cloud (Part 1)

2006-12-28T03:19:00.000-08:00

"Aotearoa" is the Maori name for New Zealand and it means the "Land of Long White Cloud". The country is beautiful and really is a place that should be visited. Yogi, Yiling and me had a short trip of 12 days to NZ...=)...someplace I would never forget, I reckon...shall put some pics on here...and you guys enjoy....

These 2 pictures were taken on the way back to Christchurch on Day 11. The weather wasn't pretty as you can see from the grey clouds...but well the snow-capped mountains still seemed majestic right? Took the trees on purpose in the foreground, not too sure if they are alpine trees though...=)

Here is the "Sea spray" or "Putai" in Maori at the Paparoa National Park near Greymouth. Notice the rocks at the background? These are the Punakaiki Pancake rocks in NZ, look at how the layers of sandstone stack upon one another. The water that gives off the spray comes from the Tasman Sea, one of the fiercest waters in the world.

This is a picture of Franz Josef Glacier of Westland National Park. Can you imagined that we climbed the glacier? Of course not to the top, it would take 4 whole days and big guts to do it mannn....=P

This is the town of Queenstown, better known as the adventure city of the world where bungy jumping originated. We didn't try bungy, but well we attempted to white water raft though...ha+

Lake Wakatipu, the third largest lake in New Zealand, with the Remarkable Ranges in the background. The mountains are part of the Southern Alps. See if you can spot a slight difference in the colour of the mountains; it is this change in colour as the sun shone on the ranges that first gave them their name.

Milford Sound- where we kayaked on Day 5, located near Queenstown. It's been long since I paddled, so shiok!!

Tough fight!

2006-11-25T05:38:00.000-08:00

The Australian Rugby League Team 2006

The final match of the rugby league season ended in a brave and tough fight between 2 gallant teams, the Australians and the Kiwis....it was a terribly exciting game that my heart could have just fallen from my mouth....I only started watching rugby here in Australia and slowly learnt that there's 2 types, league and union....managed to catch the finals of rugby union here, my first time watching rugby match here, then now we are at the end of the league season....frankly, I'm a little disappointed that all the excitement's over....at least for rugby league (since I've been watching more of league than union)...

I used to think that rugby is violent, it is still violent or rather rough, but somehow it is such a spirited game that you can get all easily passionate about. My heart was thumping so badly as I saw the Australians and Kiwis draw with a 12-all at the 71st minute...."Come on! You guys can do it!!", I cheered the Australians....I've learnt to enjoy the Aussies' play over the past 3 months and well, supported them for this finals. The golden point at the 87th min during extended time had me and Yogi actually screaming and hugging.... hee+.....that's the level of craziness I am at now....=P...."Thurston!....Ahhhh!!!.....Runnnnn!!!!", then, "Lockyer!....Ahhh!!!", and finally "Ahhhhh!!!". We were elated....it was such a suspense always, when there's a draw....

It was a great game, such a brilliant one for ending the season!....Not to forget the Kiwis who played bravely despite having losing 3 players to injuries, a match's never complete with both teams....=)....And of course, the Australians, though may not be their best game, showed how far determination can bring us at times....

Enjoyed the Rugby League season so much!....probably will not be in the middle of action here next year, but as with all sports, the fighting spirit is always there, so as with all things in life ....As my kayaking coach used to tell us, "When the going gets tough, the tough gets going"!....That's something I try to carry with me at all times, and I hope that all of you do too....!...Jia you!!

Mrs Palfrey at the Claremont

2006-11-20T03:50:00.000-08:00

I caught this movie starring Joan Plowright (Mrs Sarah Palfrey) and Rupert Friend (Ludoveic Meyer). If you can recognize her, found out online that she was the nanny in "101 Dalmations" and the voice of Baylene the Brontosaurus in "Dinosaur". This 2005 movie was Rupert Friend's debut movie, along with Pride & Prejudice.

This movie is about how Mrs Palfrey arrived in London at the Claremont Hotel, met with the residents who had been spending their days there for years as she attempts to live her life independently. She brought along a photo of her late husband, Arthur and as her grandson who worked in London failed to turn up for a visit at the Claremont, she began to feel lonely.

She met writer Ludo who helped her up when she fell outside his basement apartment one day and an amazing friendship grew from their encounter. Ludo was mistaken as Mrs Palfrey's grandson by the Claremont's residents. He graciously accepted a dinner invitation as her grandson and affectionately called her as "Sasa" (that her grandson used to call her by).

Both were drawn together by their love for poetry and shared their stories with one another. While Ludo revealed that he was not on good terms with his mother who was disappointed by his choice of career, Mrs Palfrey told him of memories of Arthur and her.

When one of the residents, Elvira Arbuthnot passed away, Mrs Palfrey became moody and as Ludo found a new romance, she began to feel lonely once more. One day, she fell from the stairs and was admitted to the hospital. Ludo rushes to the hospital once news reached him. He seemed to realize that time may be slipping through his hands and he rushes to finish a book dedicated to Mrs Palfrey, named "My Sasa". While ironically, Mrs Palfrey's real grandson and daughter did not get to come to know of her accident till the day she passed away. Ludo however stayed with her until then, reading poetry to Mrs Palfrey everyday.

It's a beautiful story which taught me to look around for the smallest things in life that sometimes could mean so much. As we live our lives in a rush, slow down and don't be afraid to show appreciation to those important to us. Cherish every moment as "tommorrow was meant for some, tommorrow may never come, for all we know".

I'm not sure if this movie is shown in Singapore, but if it does, it's a movie worth catching. Shall leave this post with the movie's theme song "For all we know".

For All We Know

For all we know, we may never meet again.
Before you go, make this moment sweet again.

We won't say goodnight, until the last minute.
I'll hold out my hand and my heart will be in it.

For all we know, this may only be a dream.
We come and we go, like the ripple on a stream.

So love me, love me tonight.
Tommorrow was meant for some, tommorrow may never come.
For all we know.

Time flies....~~

2006-11-14T04:49:00.000-08:00

Hi, everyone....

big big big apologies for not updating....I have really poor stamina as everyone can see.....hee+.....just finished my exams and so am lazing around....time realli flies, I have actualli completed one semester....=).....when I wasn't blogging, five of us did lots of stuff, we celebrated Yogi's birthday, Xueting's birthday, Yiling's birthday, Zj's birthday....we even celebrated "Mooncake Festival" in Gradin Park just near our house at 12 midnight and spent few hours playing "Truth & truth" but lousy me went to bed at around 2+ or 3+ because I could not take it while the four of them continued....haha+....Then terrible things happened after the heat wave in Sydney came and the flies unleashed!!....Ahhh!!!....Tell you guys, I have never been so "sway" yet, I SWALLOWED 2 big FAT FLIES!!!!!!! Save me mannn, even though I can't taste them, I couldn't spit them out coz I have no idea where they went and so down they go into my stomach....terrible right?.....Why haven't I heard of anyone experiencing this dreadful distasteful event....yiks!....trust me, u guys should try, flies can never be much worse after you ate them.....=P....here are some pics of the b'dae girls and dat'll be all for now!!

Yogi and her cake~~

Mid-Autumn Festival @ Gradin Park

Yiling the happy Birthday girl!

Zhijing's b'day!! and her cheesecake

Xueting and her presents!! @ Chinatown KTV

Wonderful shades of gray...

2006-09-17T01:22:00.000-07:00

" There are few happy endings all tied up in bows,
A full life is marked by the highs and the lows,
And may be it's just about finding our way,
through all of those wonderful shades of grey".

--Seonna Hong--

P.S. found this in a book I happened to flip through and there's a pic I took just outside our house and did some editing....=)

August in Sydney!

2006-08-18T08:09:00.000-07:00

Hi, everyone...paiseh so long nv blog liao.....School's pretty busy....having my first paper in 2 wks....dat's realli fast....=P.....

Spent my national day here in Sydney...we wished we had a Singapore flag to hang right at our door, first time we are so patriotic haha+...on national day itself, we actualli learnt that there's such a term as "Singaporean handshake" during lecture and that it last 10s...haha+...the whole class looked at us when the lecturer said that and we all tried shaking hands for 10s...boy...it's difficult but I guess I do have a harder time removing my hand during a handshake and just continue talking while shaking hands...haha+....but at least our classmates learnt that we are from Singapore....=P.....had chance to work with some Australian classmates on small projects and assignments.....happy about it..finally some interaction....haha+

The weather is getting better over here...=P....spring is coming...and flowers are going to bloom....going over to Canberra in late Sep/Oct I think to see the football fields of tulips....can't wait!!

Haven't got many pics recently, almost cooped up at home trying to complete the readings...leave the house for groceries and jogs....=P

haha+....this is soup, u know? I added agar agar strips thinking it was vermicilli and we all didn't know until the soup turned into gelatin-consistency....=P

This is my charcoal salmon skin!...ahhhh!!!....my favourite part of salmon gone into whisps of smoke.....the oven temperature was too high for comfort....=P

That's all folks....will upload more pics soon....awaiting Yiling's FIRST cooking attempt!.....(p.s taking far too long to load).....in the meantime, take care!!

Aquariumcolourful**

2006-07-27T06:25:00.000-07:00

Hello, da4 jia1!! Me and Xueting went to the Aquarium today...hee=P...we can finally get around without maps...and yuppie, here's a picture of Darling Harbour (below)...the yellow boat you see is a river taxi...=).....finally brought my camera....haha+

This is a snake head gudgeon.....the females can lay 200,000 eggs at a time....=P

This is an eel....What does it resemble?...guess....something slippery....? Well, everyone, please welcome the banana peel eel...=P

This is a long-neck turtle...there's 2 images becoz of the waters reflection..haha+....

There are two Green Moray eels....you can see the head of one and the tail of the other...=)...well they look brown to you right? Absolutely, becoz in deep water they appear brown and only look green due to the algae on their skin...=P

This is a threebar porcupine fish staring at us... with big blue eyes...yogi says she looks like she's smiling...hee+

The same porcupine fish swimming...hee+...eyes realli big and round...mata kuching....=P

This is a very small and interesting star....it's called the Biscuit Sea Star...nice name right?

These are the moon jellyfish..they look luminous...and well just like jelly, they are nua2 nua3...

And....here come's Nemo's friend, Dory who is a Blue Tang...if I didn't get her name wrong..=P..pls correct me, if you guys know....

This is a realli beautiful Semicircular Angelfish...Apologies for my lousy photographic skills....the aquarium lights were in the wrong direction...=p

Ornate wobbegong....his name sounds strange....he is a type of shark and is nocturnal....=)

Hee+...a group of penguins having a meeting cum breaktime amongst the tall bushes....**

Isn't the sunset beautiful?...this is Cockle Bay at 5.15pm....and you can see the wharves they built for the upcoming boat show....=p

Rambling....=P

2006-07-23T05:08:00.000-07:00

Long wanted to put up these pics but didn't have a theme, so today these pics are under RAMBLES...haha+

Yogi with her first dish in Sydney....brocolli and carrots....*claps*

Our dinner the other day, with eggs and sausages and grilled chicken (from one of the stalls on the way home)..was late dinner that day at 9+pm.....hmm.....

Yogi's friends, Yuwei, Wei Xiang and Benson left us their 2500W fan heater...Thanks a million guys!!.....Now this heater is doing its job realli well in the living room, allowing comfort TV time......=)

Furniture assembly day!!

2006-07-23T04:30:00.000-07:00

Yesterday and today was furniture day!...5 of us managed to put together a metal bunk bed, 4 cupboard-drawers and a book shelf finally after getting the 12 AUD toolbox from Ikea. Now, we have more space for our stuff, smiles Xueting (below)...=P

Now, I can have more space on my table too.....great!!....and mines white...goes with the table right?

Yiling's our drawer lady today!!!....All the drawers were fixed by her....yeah!!

Zhijing's and Yogi's bunk bed.....is ready too!

Now a more cozy home and a bookshelf and two shoeracks to go with it too!

University of Sydney Main Campus!!

2006-07-21T04:29:00.000-07:00

Dear everyone, me, xueting and yiling made a trip down to University of Sydney (UOS) main campus in Camperdown.

I bought a card that shows The Nicholson Museum, supposed to be slightly whimsical, with a boy in graduation suit, being asked by a gargoyle, 'Would you adopt me?'. This was told to me by the lady who opened the sovenior shop. Liked the card alot and decided to find the actual building and we found the actual Museum!!

(* for info: a gargoyle is a grotesquely carved human or animal figure found on an architectural structure, their original function is to serve as a spout to throw rainwater clear of the building. The word gargoyle comes from an old french word 'Gargouille', which means gurgle to represent the sound produced when water passes thru the throat. They are usually found on upper levels of the building and serves to keep the evil spirits away)...just some research done on gargoyles on the internet, who were believed to be disliked by humans despite that they helped stood and guarded the building...dats why perhaps the card shows a gargoyle asking a human to adopt him...this is just my understanding of the card combined with my limited understanding of these mythical creatures which are so amazing....hope it's not too booring...=)

Top: drawn picture of The Nicholson Museum in UOS, notice the boy in the graduation suit looking at the gargoyle in the basket(*a bit blur* paiseh paiseh)
Bottom: the actual Nicholson Museum (if you're pretty sharp, there should be a difference spotted amongst the windows haha+)

Top: gargoyle at the stairs, me stroking him Bottom: another gargoyle at the top of the stairs

We also went to the quadrangle (Do you see the four squares below?) Noticed that the lion in the building is the retired lion that had left the roof of the towel, the new one guards the quadrangle now..=)

Quadrangle: The lion(below) guards this quandrangle

The "ancestor" of the current lion who guards the quadrangle(above) has retired after 140 years (located within Anderson Stuart Building

Darling Harbour and Sydney Opera House

2006-07-17T07:08:00.000-07:00

Hey, everyone....had a great weekend...!.....Yogi's friends came down from Canberra and some of us travelled in a car....less walking and more eating haha+....Thanks, guys (Yuwei, Benson and WeiXiang).....we had fun....Darling Harbour is realli fun.....but it's realli cold near the waters...we managed to catch the last winter concert at the harbour and there was fireworks during the finale...the fireworks seemed like it is juz above us....so COoooOlllLL right?.....but tell all of u hor...I very blur blur, didn't bring my camera with me....so terrible...and my camera has a fireworks mode.....hai~~

Us opposite Sydney Harbour Bridge: Yiling, Yogi, Xueting, Zhijing, and Me

(freezing cold: Brrr...huddle together~~)

Me opposite Sydney Harbour Bridge, facing the Sydney Cove Warrane

Me at Sydney Opera House..nice rite? (picture courtesy of Wei Xiang)

Sydney Opera House....a bit blur...shutter speed a bit slow mah...haha+

Sydney Harbour Bridge...(**the building lights reflecting on the waters**)

Day 4 in Sydney!!

2006-07-14T07:20:00.000-07:00

Dear everyone, it's our fourth day in Sydney....sorry for the delay in posting my blog, was kinda of lazy to switch on my computer yesterday...we visited University of Sydney, Cumberland Campus today.....the campus pretty nice and has great scenery....

Hairy fruit on one of the trees on the campus....and tree on the campus...

"School of Physiotherapy" in UOS

Zhijing and Yogi at the small bridge leading to our school

Zhijing and Yogi cycled to school....Look at Yogi, her helmet's too big....hee+!

Today, we also cooked our first proper dinner at home, fried egg with silverfish, capsicum with chicken and black bean sauce, kailan and dried prawn (xueting fried this!! *claps*)

Our house (Our house number made courtesy of Zhijing and Yogi) and the dark sky shows the weather at 5pm in the evening...=P

Day 3 in Sydney!

2006-07-12T06:25:00.000-07:00

Dear everyone...it's our 3rd day in Sydney and it's pretty warm today...we finally got to move into our rooms and we got to show you the pics of Xueting's and my room...haha+...

(Left)--> This is my door: the string of clovers and flowers from my sisters....Thanks, Yan and Yao!! makes our day very happie when we open our door to see this in the morning....=)

(Right)--> This is our cupboard where we hang out stuff...=)

(Left)--> Xueting took so long to pack, everyone has finished except her...haha+... so she say she has"no face to see everyone" (a.k.a: mei2 lian3 jian4 ren2)

(Right)--> The right side of our cupboard...quite neat rite?

(Left)--> Zhijing cleaning the kitchen"Eeks so dirty!", our kitchen manager haha+

(Right)--> Me and MudCake and my green leafy door...=P

(Left)--> Xueting's desk with the pink chair and my desk with the green chair...

(Right)--> Me and Xueting at our door.......=)

Day 1 and 2 in Sydney!!

2006-07-11T06:19:00.000-07:00

Hey, everyone in Singapore...missed you guys...!...watched the world cup on the night of the first day in Sydney....was freezing cold under my fleece and quilt but the match froze me up when Zidane got a red card...Ahhhh!!!!....So sad, he must have been insulted badly for him to do that..but nevertheless, still like Zidane...he's so very COoooOOoooL the way he "plays" with the ball, the ball just glues to his feet...goodness...!

Day 1: we were freezing cold, bathed late and went to another suburb called Burwood from Lidcombe where we stay....train tickets are so expensive $4 AUD to and fro....and tried to figure out the mrt lines...missed SMRT all of the sudden...=P

Me and Xueting at Burwood Station (9th July SUn)

Advertisments at Burwood Station (9th July)

Zhijing and Yogi on the train....(9th July)

*paiseh: upside down

Day 2: We all decided not to bathe and be dirty for 1 day coz it is just too cold...haha+....we cooked Campbell's soup and it was a gd dinner...=P

Our first meal at our house in Lidcombe:Campbell's Chunky soup...*warm*

Going to Sydney...

2006-07-10T04:19:00.000-07:00

Big thank you to all who sent us off....our families, physio mates (U guys know who u are...), my kayaking mates (Coach, Shi1Mu3, Geraldine, Sam, Joyce, Pris, Beng leong, JiaXiong, Pihui, ZhiWei, Lyuina:how's your tummy ache), Jolene (great to see u...thanks for your card!), Xin Yan (for being camera man) and all who couldn't be there but were there ....feels strange to be out of singapore.....gonna have to come back to Singapore mann during summer holidays.....=)....miss everyone....Lidcombe's a different picture, very quiet suburb and absolutely cold now....here are some pics ..... Take good care in Singapore, folks....

My family...................................................=)

Our friends from NYP Physio .....=)

Coach, Shi1 Mu1 and kayaking mates......=)

The last guest of the night...=P

Me and Jolene.............=)

Camera man of the day..haha+ and firsttime I'm1.77m........=)

World Cup 2006

2006-07-05T07:34:00.000-07:00

As my trip to Sydney draws near, finals for World Cup 2006 is also drawing near....=P....Yeah! hooray for France....they played so well against Spain and Brazil....Their passes are well supported and have grat team spirit....And of coz Zidane, Viera and Makelele plus rising star Ribery....they work so well together..must jia you!! Les Bleus go go go!
**P.S. this is a nice picture of Zidane, he's so very cool...France is playing against Portugal tonight, I hope France wins the World Cup and Zidane have a happy retirement..haha+....All the Way, France!!

gary, jiayou!

2006-05-13T08:30:00.000-07:00

Hey, pple...me latest craze ever...
Gary 曹格！！
ever heard of this Malaysian singer...he's realli gd!
He's the one who sang SUPERWOMEN, chinese version.
曹格, jiayou!!

Pictures ready!

2006-04-22T09:24:00.000-07:00

Finally, pics are ready!! Our poster and our team: SinCynShiLenRox!!
(Cyndi, Aunty, Roxy, Lenia and me)

2006-04-22T09:17:00.000-07:00

FYP pics...!!! Yeah!!! Our poster!!!....As pure as White...hee+

SinCynShiLenRox!!! FYP 2006!!! All the way!!!

2006-04-22T07:35:00.000-07:00

Hi, da jia!!!..haha+...i tink i haven't been writing ever since ever since.....i think close to half a year....when I started writing, we were at the beginning of our FYP and now, our project is coming to an end.....=)......Really I enjoyed my FYP, I enjoyed working with my wonderful teammates...the cheerz go to our great team!! It realli is the process....although we bummed around even till this very last week, we bumped and knocked walls and drived into corners, but we did it, nevertheless, and what counts the most, is that we did it together!!! There were times we were frustrated, confused, upset and there were times we were jubilant and determined, but we were in this as one fyp team! thanks for being behind me all this while, when I was too stressed and overwhelmed! SinCynShiLenRox!!!! To Cyndi, our very great adobe illustrator who pieced our poster together, it was tough but kept it going, sorry to fell asleep on u... and your presentation was much better...=P)......To Aunty, our presenter of our day with no more pregnant pauses, our future symposium presenter and ever perfectionist (u're much worse then me...=P).....To Roxy, our cutest and ever neatest secretary (i can see your head blowing big big and big...=p).....To Lenia, thanks for your blazer and all your enthusiasm you have showed despite having it rough lately...=P)......its been a hectic yet fantastic journey, full of heart attacks and full of mind boggles.....hope you guys enjoyed our FYP as much as I did.....and may we always recall these times we had together....Roxy and Lenia, jia you!! and take care of our poster in sch ya??....and when you'll ever feel discouraged or need some booster, look at our poster and remember the times we fought it all through....gambate-ne!!...Cyndi, jia you in SGH!! you can do it!!!.......and Aunty, go get a job and dun float like a cloud at home k??...if not no progress package for u...hee+.......and as for me.....we will be in aust, keep u guys updated...maybe bringing a webcam over...haha+........and be prepared to received my x'mas cards!!....~*When the going gets tough, the tough gets going*~

Woah.....me fourth entry.......=P

2005-08-28T23:16:00.000-07:00

I tink It's one month since me first attempt to blog......=P

There are so many things I have to do, me group members have to do for our FYP.....but i kind of enjoy it....=P.....To me FYP teammates, cheers!!!! I'm glad I worked with u guys.....even for this short 2 mths..I tink I learnt loads and if we never worked on FYP, we would nv have known how far our group could have gone....Thanks Aunty: for your resourcefulness, Thanks Cyndi: for your great PR skills and english, Thanks Roxy: for being our loyal secretary always, Thanks Lenia: for helping us out with the sponsors and worthwhile suggestions and all the work you've done with the measuring tools.....hee+....it's onli 2 wks more to our talk at Teck Ghee CC, all the way guys!!....jia you...=) and dun call me "lao ban" k??....we are all "gu3 dong1"s....haha+

To me 5-man clique in NYP, hey, got less time together nowadays, don't we??....but well, don't fret....we always can try to find time together....and all the best to your FYP too.....!! and we muz meet on the sat of our first wk of attachment...=P

And to Gideon, great to have you back!....and I'll tink about wat you said....=)

And to me kayaking partner, "Partner, miss u!!!".......we will do it together!!!!!

And to me friends in JC and to those going overseas, all the best....as we go on with our busy lives, may we make time for each other....so sorry bout missing gatherings and stuff....realli packed with studying, FYP and kayaking....of all this, me family needs attention too.....can't seem to run too many things at one time.....apologies......~~ Huili, read your blog...I tink Weilian sang fantastically too.....esp when I heard the downloaded version...missed the show that day....I tot "heaven knows" was an amazing surprise.....=)...and as I listen to the song and blogging....yes, he's inspiring!!!!....Jesse, seems like you're having some fun teaching....makes me curious enuff to want to camouflage and listen to u'r lessons.....ha+

Am I being sentimental today? hee+....dunno just wrote wat I feel like writing.....=P...

okie, that's all for today, folks.....=)

My blog is alive...at least for now....=P

2005-07-23T09:16:00.000-07:00

hey, decided that when i'm boored....me shall write me blog....and hopefully it is a weekly post...=P

Sam's b'dae today....we were at Downtown East ...and woah....there's plenty of pple there over the wkends mannnnn......she's 21 and I'm going to be 21 too this year....gosh am I old......but almost everyone can't tell me age....there's pple who think I am 13 or 14.....oh me god...=)

I realize I'm getting old as me "partner" discussing about settling down, and friends aroun me speak of having kids and being pregnant....I start to feel...."boy....am I even going to tink about these issues soon?" It's seems too fast for words, too fast.....

Maybe i can soon enjoy those R21 movies i always wanted to watch and maybe I could even vote for our nation's president.....boy...being 21 holds more responsibilities and it is a turning pt to me life and me thoughts and me mindset.....

That's whole lot.....shan't tink bout it...shall work hard on me FYP and con't to jiayou!!

everyone I know...dun give up and whenever u're unhappy or disheartened, look around at the littlest things which could bring the greatest joy to u!!

My blog 2: I can't believe meself

2005-07-17T23:43:00.000-07:00

I decided to change to a smaller font size. Tink it looks better.

Barely into 3 wks of sch...and i'm kind of flooded with sruff to do...not that we weren't filled with work before....however I give meself 7/10 for me mental drive this semester....not too bad for a start...hee+

And in me driven state, I have set up a blog...I can't believe meself...what will me friends say?...."I thought you refuse to have a blog?"

Well, dun expect me to spill me emotions and thoughts all over me bloggie...I can't bring meself to do it...and I don't want to...I'll do it in me diary...

I can't stand losing meself. I just someone who feels secure with secrets that only meself know.

Forgive me for my english. I know it's horrible.

If this is a bad start to my blog, let it be.

Coz, it's juz me.**

My blog....

2005-07-17T08:27:00.000-07:00

I think me am bored.

I never thought I would have a blog.

I keep a diary myself.

I thought blogs destroy my privacy.

Then what am I doing now?

I don't think I will be telling anyone 'bout me blog...they will find out....I guess....

one day.

**Happily ever after........**

多谢，C公公～

永远的向日葵

A Tribute to me bunny, Snowball~~

OMG!

It's been baking time~~

Haven written in a while~~

人生与死亡

一切从心开始

步行2009年~~

Year 2009!!

Oh My Goodness gracious, Yr 2008 is coming to an end!!

Locked up~~

你是一杯什么样的饮料？

只是好朋友？

Do we all have the will power?

太聪明

What would I do if I knew I were dying~~

~no more cha cha~~

爱情：它到底是什么？

Mount Ophir '08

Yan's 21st bday!!! Yeah!!

Clock's back!!!

A tribute to women~~: Why do women cry?

我很好。。。

尽情的。。。

金鼠来拜年！！

生病了。。。

柠檬与蜜糖~~

柠檬的滋味~~

相信

It's Year 2008!!!

Big hugs, thanks!

A Mother's Love

知己

生命它也太短了吧！

Long time no see!!

在世界的中心呼喊爱！！

双双

只求简单。。。

Ski-ing in Snowy Mountains!!!!

感想篇（二）~~离开悉尼~~

Funfabulolous weekend!!

~~感想篇（一）

Rambling...~

Sydney Royal Easter Show (Part 3)!!!

Sydney Royal Easter Show (Part 2)!!!

Sydney Royal Easter Show (Part 1)!!

Crazy Rugby Night @ Aussie Stadium

Manly Beach!!

Double Happiness

花样少年少女

Back to Sydney!!

Aotearoa- Land of the Long White Cloud (Part 2)

Aotearoa- Land of the Long White Cloud (Part 1)

Tough fight!

Mrs Palfrey at the Claremont

Time flies....~~

Wonderful shades of gray...

August in Sydney!

~~Aquarium~~colourful**

Rambling....=P

Furniture assembly day!!

University of Sydney Main Campus!!

Darling Harbour and Sydney Opera House

Day 4 in Sydney!!

Day 3 in Sydney!

Day 1 and 2 in Sydney!!

Going to Sydney...

World Cup 2006

gary, jiayou!

Pictures ready!

SinCynShiLenRox!!! FYP 2006!!! All the way!!!

Woah.....me fourth entry.......=P

My blog is alive...at least for now....=P

My blog 2: I can't believe meself

My blog....

Happily ever after........

感想篇（二）离开悉尼

Aquariumcolourful**