It's been baking time~~

I have been baking quite a bit for a while...from pies to bread to cakes to muffins...haha++...think me should just start a bakery and maybe I may turn fat again...maybe me should choose another hobby...=P

So, I have been working to make my bread and pastries low fat even though there are certain desserts that really taste better with butter such as pies.

First project: blueberry pie...After my first pie, I made another 2 appie pies and another blueberry pie...I flipped through books in kinokuniya, and figured out the composition of butter and shortening and came up with my modified recipe. Shall put it up here on my blog...hee....

2nd project: Banana and raisin tea bread
Replaced butter with applesauce with a totally fat free treat!! I also added pumpkin seeds to the mixture to give it a crunchy nutty taste=) I mashed one more banana into the mixture, and I loved the moisture of the bread...yummy~~

3rd project: Sundried tomatoes,potato and olive bread
This bread had a chewy and moist texture...either my bread did not rise well or it is due to the potato in the mixture....it tasted well with some tuna and lettuce too...

4th project: lemon yogurt cake
I made 2 lemon yogurt cakes and 1 orange yogurt cake....I think it is the way I whisked the mixture or the amt of ingredients I added at a time, that made my yogurt cake a flattened texture and tasted like "kueh", my colleagues ate it anyway and gave me their suggestions...but my yogurt cakes after my first still tasted like "kueh" so I decided that, enough of yogurt cakes for a while and back to the basics....SPONGE CAKE

5th project: simple sponge cake (3x)
with low fat, about 20g of butter used only and yet the cake was fluffy but a little dry when cooled. Did it twice..had to make sure not to flatten the batter too much if not it will not rise as well.

6th project: my first cake: mango and peach yogurt sponge cake
Did my first cake deco...looks terrible but I love the fresh mango and yogurt combination...I felt so bad to throw away some of the whipped cream that tasted so fruity...hee..and the roasted almonds at the side...yummy~~....didn't get a chance to taste my cake though...was for Ms Gan's b'day....

7th project: Oatmal Applesauce Cookies
Completely fat free, replaced it completely with applesauce, but it became rock hard!! Oh me gosh!!...tink I will cut down on the sugar next time...~~

Haven written in a while~~

Gosh, it's been almost 2 months since I blogged....hope everyone takes good care of themselves in the midst of the flu crisis...exercise, keep fit and stay happy, pple!!

I remember me last post online about a guy I have met...I figured out that maybe a do like him a little but he is probably not suitable for me in the long run. We have different values and goals in life...and I guess that is very crucial...hmm...so me gave it many many tots for these few months, he probably can be a good friend and we can always help each other out in many other ways...but well, we will both be good this way, i think..=)

so happy that me finally got everything sorted out so I'm looking for someone who share similar values with me...=)...no longer feel confused...maybe there is realli someone on the way liaoz...

everyone, all the way!!

人生与死亡

今天，选择一个人去看了《入殓师》。很感动，是一部大家该看的电影。09年奥斯卡最佳外语片，如果我没记错的话。最近，我都在看有关生与死的书，我同事问我为什么。也许是在加护病房做了六个月的关系，我开始反省自己的人生，也开始想要更了解生死吧。

我妈问我电影可怕吗？我说不可怕，我已经不怕死亡了。假如我现在就死去，我也应该无怨无悔吧。或许我说得太干脆了。也许当我真正接近死亡的那一刻，我会畏缩。我希望我会勇敢，在面临死亡时，因为电影里有一句话：“死亡是一个门/gateway". 所以大家都会再一次相见，只不过在另一个空间。又或者像我一个朋友说过离开世间的宠物会在彩虹下与你团聚，我们人死后也会在彩虹之下相遇吧。这样想，死亡是每个人都得经历过的，我们呱呱坠地的时候，就已经慢慢的步入死亡，不是吗？所以死亡是普通的，没什么可怕。只不过每个人几时死，怎佯死，为什么死都不一样，因为每一个人的“生老病死”都该是不一样的，因为没有人可以取代任何人。每个人都是特殊的，对吧。

上个礼拜，有位在ICU的病人突然走了。我还记得前一天看他的时候，他精神不错，还可以拼命把自己拉上坐的姿势。我看了他至少也有八到十次。我还唱过歌给他听，他喜欢费玉清，周旋，我只会唱邓丽君的歌。虽然他走了，可是他奋斗过，他真的真得很努力地抗斗。那天我本来想见他最后一面，可是我没胆问他的家人。我只能说我一直会记得他的脸，而他的勇敢我永远会铭记在心。

“Uncle，我们后会有期啦”。

一切从心开始

已经很久没有被另一个人所感动，已经一段时间没有从另一个人身上让我发现自己，从来没有一个人这样让我觉得世界还是可以很单纯的。那这叫做“喜欢“，叫做“爱”吗？

他肯定不是女孩梦寐以求的白马王子，他没有特别俊俏的脸孔，他只不过高我一个头，可是怎么我觉得或许他就是我一直再找寻的那杯白开水。他可以每天不论做工多晚回家，都会带他的两只狗儿去散步。他可以为他的小鱼做CPR，他可以忍着一天一只耳朵听不见而隔天才去A& E。 我朋友说他什么星球上的人嘛？他可以一边guard duty, 一边想着飞虫的生命有多么短暂，他也可以看着我送他的铁蛋说那只小鸟好可怜。他更是很坚定地对我说喜欢动物的人是不会开店卖宠物的， 我不会忘记当时他眼神的肯定和说话的认真。那时，我就觉得他跟别的男生有些不同。三十岁的一个人怎么让我觉得他完全不属于这个复杂的社会，让我觉得他是个现代的PeterPan呢？

他当然有他的缺点，像是他晚上回家会闷而开始玩bookie 的网上游戏。我说他这样，他母亲一定很难过，我说他三十岁的人怎么只有十三岁小孩的思想。隔几天他说他不玩game了，买了几条鱼回家养，所以才会出现那为小鱼做CPR的故事。我几位朋友说：算了这个男生不适合你，如果将来他沉迷于那些bookie games, 怎么办？我也有想过啊。可是打从我心里面我知道他其实是个或许在这追求地位，金钱的社会上失去方向的人，因为他思想根本就不是属于如今的现实。我是这样觉得的。

所以我说“一切从心开始”，或许我太天真，或许我不太理智，或许。。。这世上有太多的或许。我最近刚读完一本书：“山中花开”，里头法顶禅师这样说过：“死亡不只是迎面而来，而是会在毫无预警的情况下从后面扑来，所以人生中应该随时准备面对死亡”。所以我要把每一刻当成生命中的最后一刻。所以将来的事我们无法预知，又或许如果我用这一刻的心去认真地对待当下，也许将来的事会不一样。就算我是个无头苍蝇，我要做个有心的苍蝇。

所以现在，我只想用我的心去感受他这个人的心。其实每个人的心都是炽热的，不是吗？反正生命它就在这一刻，不是吗？

步行2009年~~

本来在2008年的21日，参加一个50公里的步行活动，可是却没想到生病了，所以没去。步行和跑步之间，你比较喜欢哪一个？两者之间，我没有偏爱哪一方面，只是有时候跑累了，就想慢慢地走。为什么突然间想到步行呢？因为早报周刊在2009年的第一周刊登了那么一篇文章：“2009年初始，让我们回到最初的起点，找回原始的本能，重新认识---步行".

大家趁这机会想一想，步行对你们来说有什么意义吗？还是大家已经太习惯驾车，坐车了呢？我曾经试过在凌晨一点钟从Yio Chu Kang MRT 走回家，花了我整整一个钟头。爸爸和朋友都骂我傻，干吗不坐计程车呢？其实当时我也并没有真正想到安全方面，只是纯粹想趁个机会胡思乱想，享受那种忧哉闲哉的感觉罢了，就是那么的简单。

有时候大家每天忙忙忙，早上起身刷牙洗脸，吃早餐，上班，下班，吃晚餐，看一下电视，睡觉。。。一切太冲忙了吧。并没有好好地看一下那路边的小花，听那早晨的鸟声，感觉一下下午的阳光，抬头望那天上的星星。步行所包含的不只是慢慢走动的姿势，更是一种生活的态度吧。就是能够放下所有包袱，然后尽情享受自我，享受自然，轻轻松松的。那种自在应该是钱也买不回来的吧！有朋友问我：“你觉得我们应该享受还是每天存多多钱?" 我对他说：我们难道就不可以享受生命中些小小的东西吗？钱当然还是可以存的呀。很多时候享受都不需要和钱扯上关系的。每天起身能够呼吸新鲜的空气，那就是一种福份，一种享受，一种回到初始的感觉一样。That's why today is called the present...不是吗？

在这新的一年里，我想重新认识自己，认识身旁的人和事物，以步行的态度体会人生。因为我也差不多有一个世纪的一分之四那么大了， 二十四岁之后的人生，我想，是该更清醒些的不是吗？现在就让我慢慢的躺在床上，享受着此刻吧！

Year 2009!!

Hey, everyone...i noe that this post is kind of late...=P...it's already the 5th of Jan, 2009!! and I haven posted any pictures of my sushi making and birthday celebrations online yet...i will do it in the next post k?

Firstly, thank you everyone for the well-wishes on my birthday!

Thanks to me family for the Cantonese dinner, mocha walnut cake, bag, pouch and postcards!!

Thanks to Gretel, Jia Wei, Huixin, Jordan, Wencong, Loo Wee, Xinyan for celebrating my bday on the 31st (supposed to be a surprise..hee+)and for coming to me place for steamboat!! and of course thanks (including of coz Yiqin: must be ur idea right?, Suryani and Ringo too~~) for the Jimmy Lin wallet from HK...its very pretty and thoughtful....

Thanks to Xinyan for the gym bag, water bottle and card...just what i needed, man!

Thanks to Jolene for the clover jap diary and Jieying for the shampoo and body cream/lotion!!

Thanks to Bala for his Ferrero Rocher...ha=p....

And of course to everyone who has given me presents and greetings for christmas...diary, pouches, necklance, teddy bear, sweets, chocolates, gym gloves...I dun have the habit of giving x'mas presents but looks like i will start this year in 2009....hee=)

And to anyone i missed out, I hope everyone enjoyed christmas and new year as much as I did....=)

As for the new year, lets look at last year's resolutions first (refer to me Jan 2008 blog)...=P

1) Yes, I'm still enjoying my time with my patients and colleagues greatly!!...but need to buck up on my article readings though....hee...

2)less running around at night...better now..but going to gym too often is it?...got no life almost...hee...me sis is back from HK by the way, yeah! but other sis still in NTU hostel...

3)meeting up with frens..have been consistent for few groups of pple only...it's gotta be better this year...

4)paying my own bills yes..but not writing my finances down properly yet...and just spent a bomb on personal training and taiwan trip....time to save more!!

5)learn the guitar? yes!! this one I did, not yet singing for leisure at 民歌餐厅, but sang and played at year end party...

6)hmm...haven been practising Tai Chi, except for twice in Taiwan in Ping xi where it just felt so good!!

7)nopey...this one failed terribly...paiseh Coach!!...haven been once to kayaking since last year!

8)yup..just sent me Aussie frens christmas cards!..

9)yes..eating healthier and exercising 3 times a week now in gym!!....lost a couple of kilos liao...jia you!!

SO, in conclusion, most of my new year resolutions last year still holds....and adding few more...

10) learn driving towards end of year maybe Nov...

11) help plan my supervisor's wedding...she deserves it true and true....so exciting!!

That's all for now, folks!!....Will post some pics up k?? Take care!!

Oh My Goodness gracious, Yr 2008 is coming to an end!!

Seems like not too long ago we had countdown together opposite Esplanade...time really flies...~~haven been blogging for some time too...just some updates...=)

got myself into California fitness, having personal training currently, lost some weight...=)...went to Taiwan with Jiawei...met and seen some great people and places...ran the Standard Chartered 10k for the 2nd time...busy preparing for the year end party performance...first time performing on my guitar...enjoying my work...=)...then falling sick for the 2nd time in two weeks and yet another MC...broken my record and used up half my MCs in the months of Oct and Nov...

and Yes!...I'm blogging because me am on MC today...and of course Christmas is here! and year 2009 is coming!!...Hope everyone's enjoying the last few days of 2008!....and meanwhile...take care pple!!....