Do we all have the will power?

I have seen it happen twice within a span of 1 month...my patients were doing ok, not too bad, but ok...able to sit out in the chair and talk a little...no doubt a little grumpy at times, as most patients are anywayz....then when the doctor speaks to them about their illness, their prognosis which is not optimistic, the vicious cycle begins from that point...they start looking tired and empty sometimes....they begin to lose the spirit and just 5 days, a time of merely less than a week, they are gone....at least physically no longer on this earth...it's scary...how important the human will power and spirit is....that's probably why sometimes certain people can live longer than expected and survive illnesses...it's the will power, i guess......Will I have it? if I know I may go soon, will I have the will I used to think I have....i have no answers to this....sigh~....all i can say is that i will do my best for all of you around me....tanks pple....**

太聪明

太聪明-陈绮贞

总以为迷一般难懂的我
在你了解了以后其实也没什么
我总是忽冷又忽热隐藏我的感受
只是怕爱你的心被你看透

猜的没错想得太多不会有结果
被你看穿了以后我更无处可躲
我开始后悔不应该太聪明的卖弄
只是怕亲手将我的真心葬送

我猜着你的心要再一次确定
遥远的距离都是因为太过聪明
要猜着你的心要再一次确定
混乱的思绪都是因为太想靠近你

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你有试过想关心一个人，可是却很不自己的约束自己的感觉吗?
就是那种有冲动要靠近，可是却很理智地告诉自己不能吗？
原来这种感觉真不好受。

因为知道没结果，而不想让自己陷下去。也许就因为这样， 我开始选择拉开我们之间的距离。我开始学习不这么在乎你。我更开始尝试安静的不说话，因为我已经不想再让喜欢你的心太赤裸的表露出来，特别在别人面前。这些对于你来说和逻辑吗？

可是我们之间的默契难道只有我感觉得到吗？难道一切都只是我的幻想吗？或许只有这样才能解释我们现在有点尴尬的局面吧。这一切的一切都只是我的胡思乱想吧。或许我不应该再表现得太坚强，或许我也不因该再假装那么的不在乎，或许我该学会表露脆弱，或许这样你才能够更了解我现在的感受， 或许这样你才了解我需要的并不是那句对不起。 我只是想知道我感觉到的默契是不是真实的，就这么简单罢了。

我说得太多了吧。我想。好累。原来我还是宁愿永远是傻的，不想太聪明了。